blacK solitude

Thursday, June 19, 2008

A ngry
R estless
G rumpy
H urt

IM SO FREAKING PISSED
ANGRY
ANGRY
ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH
I HAVE TO SHOUT
I HAVE TO SCREAM
IM GONNA BE UNREASONABLE.
I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE.

ARGGGGGGHHHHHHH
FREAK
FREAKING
FREAKING
FREAKING FRUSTRATED.
but wat can i do?

THIS ISNT GOOD.
NO...
HATE IT
HATE IT
HATE IT

AARGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JUST.....
NVM.
FORGET IT..

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 5:29 PM

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Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Im so proud of myself today
*pats on shoulder*

As usual, I woke up at 9am to prepare and get ready for work.
Then my right eye very tired, so I gei kiang,
Decided to lie on my couch and rest for a while.

“DING-DONG” went the grandfather clock in my living room.
I got a shock of my life.
It was bloody 930am !!!!!!!!!!!
My bus leaving at 945am!!!!!!!!!!
But I must leave my house by 940am!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHIT!
I rush to bathroom and showered.
Rush to my room n changed.
And rush to the bus stop.

Guess wat?
I got ready in 10mins.

*APPLAUSE*

10 freaking mins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lol.
Can u imagine.
A pretty gal like me can get ready in 10 mins???? LOL.
Really super amazing leh.
WOW.

Lol.
I super impressed by myself. I half walked, half ran to the bus stop.
End up I stil early, waiting for the bus.
LOL.

But alas,
I din put any moisturizer on my face,
I din slapped any body lotion on my sexy body.
I din put any serum on my gorgeous hair.
LOL.
But at least I stil wore clothes out.
Lol.

Im gonna give myself a treat today!
Lol.
For not wasting money by taking cab to work.
For being able to get rdy by 10mins!

WOAH.
Lol.
Amazing!!!!!!!!!!!

Plus today,
I received 2 calls early in e morning when I jus started work,
wishing me to have a nice day leh…
My mood today really super high.
Lol.
=)))))))))))))))))))

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 11:21 AM

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slowly
falling

slowly
im falling...

how it sucks not being able to do a single freaking thing to stop the pain.

better stop right now.
don't. not right now. not again.
exams: main focus.

focus, von
focus..
you can do it. =)

so can you. only if you want it too. :)

*hugs*

P.S: Jiayou Da Mai ;)
say them in ur prayers every night. :)

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 1:52 AM

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Friday, June 13, 2008

Been sitting thinking bout you and I
And wondering why were not getting along
So frustrated cause, what we had was a happy home
I don't know what the situation is, but I can tell in the way we kiss
We don't talk no more, it feels better when I’m alone


Sometimes I feel like there's no gettin through to you
Like you don't appreciate all that I do
you gotta show me that you want me to stay
Don't turn and walk away


Baby I’m slowly falling out of love with you
I don't know what to do
How did we end up here this way, what are we gonna do
I’m slowly falling out, baby we're tripping off silly things
Boy I need you to meet me half way, if you want me to be with you


I remember when, I be with my friends
You checked on me and made time to call
But how things have changed
Now I don't hear from you at all (yeah...yeah...yeah)


Sometimes I feel like there's no gettin through to you
Like you don't appreciate all that I do [All that i do]
you gotta show me that you want me to stay
Don't turn and walk away…


Baby I’m slowly falling out of love with you
I don't know what to do
How did we end up here this way, what are we gonna do
I’m slowly falling out, baby we're tripping off silly things
Boy I need you to meet me half way, if you want me to be with you


Don't let your pride get in the way
On something we worked so hard, don't throw it away
I’ve been trying to make you see,
Everything you need, is right here in me


Sometimes I feel like there's no gettin through to you
Like you don't appreciate all that I do
you gotta show me that you want me to stay
Don't turn and walk away…


Baby I’m slowly...
[Don't turn and walk away...] 
Baby I'm slowly falling out of love with you
I don't know what to do
How did we end up here this way, what are we gonna do
I’m slowly falling [I'm slowly...] out
Baby I'm tripping off silly things
Boy I need you to meet me half way, if you want me to be with you


I’m tired of giving my all
[Slowly fallin]2
How did we end here this way
I just want to know what are we gonna do
[Slowly fallin]3
How did we end up here this way? What are we gonna do
[Slowly fallin]2
How did we end up here this way?
What are you gonna do

- im falling in love with this song.

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 1:32 PM

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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

finally.
the 2 performances are over.
studiowu recital and tbg.
=)))))))

overall,
it was really an enjoyable perf..
i see a potential leader rising. =)
out of the 30 ppl.
w/o him,
i doubt ppl would see of us as professional dancers.
and i doubt we would be so disciplined, so united,
so happy performing,
so family.
so loved.
=)))))
and i bet,
everyone noe who i'm talking abt.
=))))
thank you. to you.

watched TBG last sunday.
it nv failed to make me lau sai n constipate at the same time.
the dancers.
truly amazing.
Old Crew.
Kulture Break.
WCO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really.
i literally cheered n screamed until my voice lau hong.
lol
then i speak to everyone in high pitch voice.
lol.

but seriously
everyone is jus too impressive.
=DDDDDDDDDDDD

yokoi.
is so cute.
lol.
i really like his style. clean. sharp.

dominc.
he's even cuter.
he asked for my name
lol.
his control. brings me back to basics. damn important. impressive.

takae.
his crazy legs. moved damn fast. look so relax doing house. too li hai oredi.

shohei.
his "stop" action. woow. lol. impressed impressed.

bon.
seriously, when bon dance, reminds me of clement face. hahahah =)

UU.
his expression. locking. damn entertaining. love watching him perform.

sawadah.
choreo catches every single beat. he really too tian cai to be able to do it. *bows*

hanaii.
damn cute. his locking is so relax. and his locking with a little of whacking also! i like him =))

really.
really.
really.
really amazing how 8 such different dancers can blend in so well tgt in a grp.
yet they are still able to bring out their own character..
really amazing.
i tat night really cannot slp.
too hype up le.
lol.

ppl b patient k
pics of them coming up soon.
hahahahaha...

btw.
nra, we did it once again. =)
proud of NRA.
proud of u guys. TBG & Studiowu performers
proud of my ah beng Ah Chao
proud of Ah Ji
proud of Steffi
- thank you for so patiently teaching me apologize =)
proud of SK
-you will be alrite okie. i believe that u'll recover rapidly. i pray for ya. =)
proud of Mis-Ter
proud of Ken
proud of Fredy
n im sure ur purple hair will fade off to ugly gold. lol.

basically.
im proud of everyone.
Ronnie. Ore. Jaei. Da Mai.Bec.Mami.Fat Pig.Xiang Mei.Xiao Pang.Sophie.JJ.Allegra.
must i name everyone out????

LOL.
really lah.
if i cld.
i'll name every single person out.
but seriously,
i blog tis during work.
i really cannot lah.
lol.
i love u guys okie.
those names not mentioned
i love u more.
alrite?? =D
next time get a kiss from me okie?
hahahaha..

Last but not least.
thankful for Ann =)

i'm really truly proud to be part of NRA.

-loves =)

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 3:31 PM

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Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Sometimes,

It really isn’t always funny being the joke of the day.

-prays

Self-pity is our worst enemy and if we yield to it,
we can never do anything good in the world.
- Helen Keller

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 11:05 AM

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Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Something I wanna share with you guys.
Each time I drink pearl milk tea
I’ll have stomachache and feel like vomiting.
After I empty my bowels,
I immediately vomit.
-_-

The pearl milk tea was extremely tasty when I drank it
But when it came out from my mouth again,
EEeeeeeeYeeeeeeeeeeWWWWW
Damn disgusting can!!!!!

Tat time when I vomited in the toilet at 73,
A black black thing came out from my mouth,
I look closely at it,
Then realize
“omg, it’s the pearl”
Not wanting to waste my money,
I decided to eat it again.

.
.
.
.
.

YUUUCCCKSSSSSSSSS!!!
LOL

Of cos I didn’t put tat pearl inside my mouth lah!
Lol.
I threw it inside the toilet bowl and flushed it back to Bugis Sweet Talk. Lol

Lau,
But seriously
What is happening.
Today lunch I bought pearl milk tea from LP.
Happily drank it and eat my crab nuggets from Old Chang Kee.
Went back to office n sat down for less than 10 mins,
I immediately rush to the toilet.
-_-

Jigu.
My money lydat wasted. 3 bucks leh!
Apparently, tis time round, no pearls came out,
But my vomit was damn fast.
Lol.
As in, the.. erm.. the vomit came out pretty fast.
Last time slow n steady, this time, WOAH.
Like u turn on a tap to its fullest, tat kinda fast u noe?
I got a shock.
Cos the vomit almost splash onto my pants.
LOL.

Okie guys,
Please show more concern towards me alrite?
Althou I’m attached now to my ah beng (Ah Chao),
We’re breaking up this very Sunday after the performance. LOL.
And he doesn’t really care much about me.
Rem how he luff at me when I hit my butt?
tat evil pig. LOL.

Arghhhh
Jiayou bah ppl,
Be it TBG or StudioWu alrite? =))))))
We will all do well.. cos I nv stop praying =))))

Meanwhile,
Study hard ppl!!! =D

when one door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often we took so long at the closed door that
we do not see the one which has been opened for us.
- helen keller =)

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 4:24 PM

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