blacK solitude

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Problems

Fears

Who nv encounter them before?
Countless of ppl, including u and me,
each and every one of us are facing the same problems, unknowingly
how ?
cos somehow each n every probs are related or somehw inter-link with each other...

Everyone in life will definately go thru the same probs,
the difference will only be the severity of the probs and hw the person goes abt perceiving their probs...

One shd noe that,
there is no one in this world that's perfectly happy,
it's jus lyk no gals will ever be satisfied with their looks.

But,
every stage that u go thru,
every probs tat cling on u,
u jus hav to treat them as a passing phrase of ur life,
get on with it
and not dwellin on it forever.

you can complain, nag, fuss, throw a temper
but nv ever dwell on it too long.

wat's da point ?
making urself upset,
making alot of ppl ard u worried,
wasting time tinking and troubling with non-existent problems
wasting ur youth,
taking away the happiness that u're entitled too
and tinking that pain is the only way out ?

If smthing is really wrong,
do smthing abt it.
Make urself useful,
talk to ppl ard u,
solve the prob!

Sitting there, drowning in ur own pool of tears (or blood) doesnt help at all.
Watever you are goin thru,
someone in this world has been thru it too. or even worst.
Some pulled themselves tgt and became stronger.
Others?
They succumb to their "problems"
and die miserably.

WE lead a healthy life now
or rather,
at least we're given a touch of life.
Think abt the others,
think abt hw many unfortunate ppl are there all over in tis world?
and here we are,
thinkin hw misery our lives are,
wanting to end it just lydat?
When there's so many ppl out there,
who prays for a new life to b given to them?

Think again
Think twice
Think thrice
Think thoroughly

Make sure you noe wat the consequences are,
not jus for u solely to bear
but for the ppl ard u
ppl who cared abt u
ppl who are known as ur family, ur frens, ur gf/bf, ur pets, even ur maid!

One last word
Be happy n stay strong

P.s It will all b over soon. I pray for ur safety n happiness. I care alot for u, seriously, so much tat it numbs me.

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 1:48 AM

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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

im okie

=)

jus searching for the real me...
Who am i actually ???
Am i being the real me???
Wat is considered real ???
Time wld tell bah...

one qns for u ppl out there....

Do i appear v sad n troubled in front of u guys???

Guess its jus e way hw u lyk it to be.. im fine with it..so long as u're happy.. i will be too..

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 4:20 AM

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Thursday, August 24, 2006

Gone

Gone with the wind
No longer do i dwell on the past
Nth is worth lookin back
As I look forward to the future
I know somewhere...
A bright path waits ahead for me
A path to not success
but
Happiness

So wat if u've got everythin in this world?
So wat if u've strike lottery and won a zillion dollars?
So wat if u've become the best known dancer across WWW ?
So wat if u become famous overnight?
So wat if everything u've ever wished for came true?

But....
u're all alone...
with no one to share ur happiness with u
with no one to share ur joys with u
with no one to share ur sorrows with u...
cos why?
ppl are forced outta ya life...
by you.

These are the ppl...
ppl whom cared n loved u once...
ppl whom trusted u...
ppl whom they tot u trusted them...

due to ur negligence...
due to ur selfishness...
due to ur seft-centred u....
everyone's gone....
and u dun even realise it....

Perhaps when u even realise it...
U might b standing with everything u've wanted.... ALONE...

Are u happy?
Will u b happy?
Do u regret?
If so, why did u even allow tat to happen?

Did it ever occur to u that
when u chose to close up and suffer alone tat time,
thinkin tat it'll b the better for everyone,
there are actually ppl hurting and suffering with u at the same time?
cos they noe u're hurting so much,
yet there is nth they can do...
U're nt the only one hurting...
Why wld ppl wan to go thru all these down period with u ?
Cos,
they love you...

Love,
its so simple yet profound.
its smthing tat cannot b describe by only words.
it doesnt come along ur way jus lydat
no, treasure all e ppl u've got...
love them, give back their love..
nv take them for granted..
doesnt mean tat they're here for u at tis time,
it means tat they'll b here for u forever...
it's time to wake up to ur senses...

don wait till e day,
when somebody's gone
and will nv be back,
den u regret and do smthing tat's oredi way too late ...

Humans make mistakes
I do
So does everyone
But learning frm the mistakes made is nt smthing everyone can do....

i feel sad
i pity u.

A brand new life awaits for me
Im so rdy to start the new me
Ppl,
get rdy to welcome me. =)

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 1:23 AM

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Im hurt

by wat u've done

U've slashed me not once
not twice...
Umpteen times...

U may nt hav realised it
why?

cos it seems lyk
u're in ur own world...

Do u even care ????

What's da matter with everyone.... ?

I jus wan a simple life......
I jus wan everyone to b happy.....
that's all....
Im really nt askin for more...
Im nt askin for the impossible to become possible...
for i oredi knew it long long time ago...
tat wat i've been wishin n praying for
wld NEVER come true....

Im da biggest fool on earth... to have believe every single word u've said...

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 12:30 AM

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

It shd hav nv started...
Nv wanted it to end tis way...
I was wrong...
so wrong...

"Sorry"
i noe it wont help....
nth will help...
cos it has oredi happened...
and it's takin effects oredi....

If u truly und me...
u wld noe why im doin al dese...
i dun hav to explain myself again...
cos....
its redundant....

Im guilty
Someone pls arrest me and put me behind bars....

im really sorry.... i din wan it to b lydat either....

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 1:49 AM

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Tuesday, August 01, 2006

im trying le....
pls pray for me...
pray tat i'll succeed...

i miss you...

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 4:14 AM

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