Friday, January 27, 2006
hate tis kinda feeling
hate it
hate it
hate it
HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
once and once and again...
it's not da first time...
no, it's not !
umpteen times !!!
damn it
i hate those ppl
how selfish can u be?
doing this? keepin everythin to urself?
makes u happy ?
satisfied?
damn u man...
havn't u heard of..
a good deed returns another??
lend a helping hand whenever u can ??
damnit..
freaking ppl really spoil my mood...
damn u all...
cant u all...
help someone who's in need?
does it take so much energy to jus make a call ?
or send a freakin msg ???
DOES IT ???
damn it man....
just how "nice" u guys were to me...
making my day filled with "memorable" thoughts...
just bcos it's oredi da last freakin yr in NP..
doesn't mean that
i am to be forgotten.
no one bothers anyway.
Freak u all.
Late DOESNT mean Absent
Absent DOESNT mean I want to
If u guys DUNNO the REASON behind it,
dont FREAKING ASSUME !
yes.
Im freaking pissed
get off my back.
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 10:22 AM
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Thursday, January 26, 2006
Raindrops stirring up the air,
petals coming back to life
Feelings revitalized
we made just the perfect pair.
Im falling under,
won't you catch me
and hold me tender?
Waiting..
Praying..
Hoping..
for the day to come.
Lost, i am
gone with the wind
less of an angel
I search for your presence
Yet,
all i can see is
Nothing.
Spaces enlarging within,
don't wish for it no more
Holding still,
my patience running thin.
Slowly,
my body fades away
Unnoticed
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 8:56 PM
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
jus wanna say
im grad soon..
it's really very soon...
how soon ?
check ya calendar..
lol...
new yr is coming..
damn..
the eve is on fri..
hope clz will b cancelled..
or rather.. postponed..
lol...
yes..
im lazy..wat to do..it's new yr...!!!
i wanna go get my ang baos...
im desperate for money...
why?
cos my hp svc stopped again...
damn...
no money to pay e bill...
let's hope money starts rollin in again..
*slurpsSsss*
wrong word to use.. lol
(smacks both hands in glee)
well well well....
not much time left to do my individual assignments n projects..
i better hurry..
last yr..
i do so wanna grad ...
wanna b able to grad successfully... >__<
gonna take a break after tat...
mmm... might be a long break...
cos nid to work for my sch fees..
if im gonna cont studying...
wanna go for holidays...
wanna go kl shop..
wanna go hk shop..
so many places...
yet...
no money...
freak...
lol...
argGghh...
gotta work !!!!!!!!!!!!
jia you bah !!!!
yeah yeah..
new yr coming...
(yes i noe.. my 3rd time repeating)
eh...ppl...
don eat so much k...not good...
not only referring to e extra pounds tat u may gain..
but...
new yr goodies v heaty..
make sure.. u drink lotsa water k...
if not.. will fall sick easily de..
nowadays..
ppl are jus so weak... lol....
pls take care of urself..
esp those stubborn ppl who refuses to see a doc when they're sick...
take care ya...
adios``````````
*New Year is coming !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 2:32 AM
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Outfitters !!!!
Left to Right: Xin, Shar, Ariel, Mag, Allegra, Me !!
Outfitters n JK SCAFS !!!! =D
Outfitters n Ah Bu Nei Nei !!!
Ariel don jealous k... yes.. he's proposing to me... we're gettin married... !! LOL....
Taken at Gotham...
Our PCD Front cover... ! ^_^
Taken at Gotham still..
after the comp...
Sexy 4...
She's my Yin
I'm her Yang
Don mess with us
Simply love tis pic...
Pinkvalicious.... *
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 2:21 PM
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Funka is over !!!!!
yupz...
it's finally over...
time to take a break...
and really really concentrate on my studies....
my last yr in NP...
i wanna do it well....
i wanna grad ...
lol...
pls don make me repeat any modules k...
pls...
*prays*
anyway...
wanna say a big big thank you...
to all NRA supporters....
thx..
u guys been such a wonderful crowd...
kip cheerin for all of us...
thank you !!! ^^
wanna say an even big thank you to ANN....
our dearest instructress....
u're the most amazing person i've ever known in tis world....
i really really look up to u...
i can feel wat u're feelin for us..
noe tat u're really tired...yet happy...
i love ya... love ya lots...
even though sometimes u're so auntie...
lol...
i seriously respect u..
u... got Von Spears respect !!
be happy n proud of it k !!!
heezz
*muAcKkKsssSsS*
to all e funka grps....
We all did it !!!!
Yesssss........
everyone.... no matter who won...
who didnt...
bcos...ultimately...
we're together...
we all left an impression on the judges n audiences...
we're a club...
we're NRA..
so....
NRA won !!!!
yes !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Long Live NRA !!!
NRA NRA NRA NRA NRA !!! lol.........
Congrats to other funka grps as well....
Steezers... Da Street Souls... Fat Mama Crew... and alot alot of the grps...
u guys did well !!!!
every move u make...
my hair stands...
and then it drops... -_-
LOL...
yes...
now.. now im hairless le !!! hahahaha....
anyway...funka is over...
the production awaits...
im lookin forward to it !!! heeeez....
everyone... all of u guys out there...
pls support our production k !!!
it's a must k !!!
will let u guys noe when's our production !!! =D
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Happy 19th Bday to Luo Tuo Po !!!
yeah... !!!
it's her bday today... !!
and it's a big big success !!!
hahahah...
wanna thank all our actors/actresses.... !!
u guys were great !!!
including me !!!
woohoo !!!!
i tink...
NRA is really full of talented ppl !!!
muahahahahah...
can sing..
can act...
can dance !!!
pro liao... pro liao ... !!! LOL....
anyway... her bday celebration was a success..
i wont b goin into details ya...
u guys will noe when u see the pics...
heeez...
will till i get e pics yeah?
yesss.... excited rite? curious rite?? muahahahahah....
anyway... tat si fei po...
happy bday hoh...
u better b happy..
or i curse u... LOL....
u.... u...... hope u really lyk e celebration...
ultimate le...
i tink... better than urs... wat ru hua? yucks...
im smart...
lol..
tat's y from normal to express...
li hai bah !!! muahahahah...
shhhhhhh...
i not proud k... LOL....
aiyah... will giv ya ur present soon hoh...
now..im seriously v broke...
i try k..
if stil no money.. ermz... then... then...
then hoh... mayb next yr then giv ya... LOL...
u v fan.. i dun lyk... lol... pls change it... !!!
hehee...
happy 19th bday...
once again...
muackzzz *
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1 qns
how do u differentiate betweena crush...and a real liking... ?
mmmmmm....
wat differentiates them ?
you will constantly tink of that person...
u feel lyk seeing that person owiz...
when he/she is not there.. u feel empty..
he/she can really cheers u up...
he/she holds a place in ur heart...
mmmm...
doesn't a crush applies to all these too ??
mmm....wat if... it's a real liking ?
how would u noe then??
or perhaps...
it aint like or crush at all...
perhaps it's jus...a way of comforting urself...
by telling urself tat... u lyk tat person ?
cos everyone ard u seems to b so happily in love???
and tat u feel inferior...
thus the need to go lyk someone...
the need to feel tat u're in love too ???
or mayb... u lack of ppl showering concern over ya...
cos u're owiz the one tat has been showering concern over others...
which is why...
even a small msg or call from someone wld mean alot alot to ya?
mmmm... how wld u noe?
hw to differentiate?
time? some ppl wld say...
time will tell everything...
but.. wat if... u take too long..
to notice tat.. to answer tat qns.... to find out the truth....
and...
and...
the person has oredi left ???
mmmm.... confusing.... >_<
im.....
clueless.....
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 2:04 PM
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Monday, January 09, 2006
Congrats congrats!!!!
congrats to Outfitters for gettin into semi-finals !!!
yayyyyy!!!
hahaha.... semi-finals....
woooHooo...
let's make our way to finals !!!!
oh... ya... ermz...
wait...ya hoh...
haben congratulate e rest of the grps...
lol.....
congrats to xiao hao nei yi...
yay.
congrats to ah bu nei nei...
yay.
congrats to ba-ta-lion...
yay.
congrats to super gays...
yay.
congrats.
ya..
congrats.
YaYYYYY !!!!
OUTFITTERS GOT IN !!!
lol...
congrats !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
muahahahah....
ehh....
now must work extremely hard le...
everyday training...
Outfiiters... don b lazy lyk xiao hao nei yi k !!!
we must train...
get e feel....
let's jia jia you together !!!! =D
tis yr...
not alot of grps join funka....
some more... last min...
got 6 grps pulled out...
so... only left 22?
around there bah...
and...
16 grps got into semi finals leh...
wow....
the next round...
6 grps will be eliminated....
only 10 can make it to the finals....
wa seh~~~
lol.....
don talk so much le...
better go prac now...
hahahahahaha....
GamBaTaEEeee evEryone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Sprinkles L.O.V.E all around*
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 12:05 PM
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Thursday, January 05, 2006
scary...
few more days...
to be exact....
2 more days....
omg...
and....
it'll be funka heats...
yessss...
funka heats....
tis coming sat....
at NUS....
ya... i noe...
it's nt my first time joinin funka...
still... u'll b nervous rite?
wad if... smthing crops up ??
choy choy choy !!! "(touch wood)
plus... tis sat..
is our Danz Explosion too....
yeah... main organizers...
NRA * (applause) xie xie... xie xie da jia.... =D
so many things goin on tis coming sat....
it's gonna b a long long long long day for everyone man...
so hoh,
pls rest well on fri night k ?
don go clubbin hoh ! i slap u... !
lol...
or... stayed up late at night dunno doin wat thing...
lol...
pls go n get some rest.... !
those...
who owiz come nra dunno do wat shit outside the studio...
(yes... im referrin to the "korean superstar")
u better come down support us...
or i smack !
erm... mmm...
i whack !!!
lol...
mayb i crumb....
muahahah... scared rite?
u come down n support... !
it's not a request...
nor is it an invite...
it's a COMMAND !!! ORDER !!!
muahahahahah....
anyway... let's nt waste much time on him...
lol..
not worth it...
muahahahah....
ya.. so... tis sat... 2 impt events goin on...
1st ==> Funka Heats at NUS...
first round starts at 10.15am...
yesss...
AM!!!
be there bright n early to support us...
Presenting * Lil'Bras = 2nd Grp, Outfitters = 7th Grp, Super Gays = 8th Grp * okie??
Followed by.... the second round of heats...
shd b starting at .. 12- 1230pm...
Presenting * Ba-ta-lion = 7th grp...(copy Outfitters... LOL...)*
Ah Bu Nei Nei = shd be grp 13th or 14th or 15th... LOL...
So...
pls bring all ur... poms poms, whistles, drums, lol...
to support all 5 grps k !
and... pls drink herbal tea or honey water the night before...
why?
so hoh... u can scream for all of us on sat morning !!!! yay !!!!
Jia you bah.... everyone !!!!
show them... wat we've got...
hehehe..
i mean....
wat OutFitters got !!
muahahahah...
don jealous k !!
esp tat grp of xiao hao nei yi !!!!!
lol !!!
Cherrios !!!!
`_ Princess of Love_`
P.S Actually.... i seriously do love everyone...
exceptionally for some ppl lyk fake korean superstar...
jap ppl.. esp Speed.. eeee yuck!,
N wat taiwan Ming Xing.. S.H.E ??
and and...
i dun lyk... those overly- tanned ppl too ....
and and... those pretending that they v pro in popping...
har nor... and mayb... those who tink tat... chickens can save the day??
or.. n also.. those cat lovers???
oh pls...
muahahahah....
except for all these ppl...
i really do love everyone....
i swear... *smiles sweetly & cross fingers*
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 1:47 PM
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
2005 has left...
2006 awaits...
a new year for me...
wld it be better?
i certainly hope so...
everyone is making their new yr resolutions...
wat's mine?
mmm...
be happier?
haha... i'll try..
but tat's hard...
let's skip tat one...
mmm... show more love and concern to my family members more?
yup... i promise i'll do that one...
after seeing back 2005...
i'll definately treasure them more than anythin in this world...
mmm.. do a good deed every single day...
helps to brighten up my day too... =)
and....
try to at least.... get in touch with all my other close frens..
i dun wanna neglect u guys...
bcos of dance... >_<
and... i wanna manage my time well....
i sux at time management..
which explains why... im owiz doin things last min...
and i dun lyk it at all...
pls... if any of u...
hav any idea on how to make me more organized...
able to handle everythin properly...do teach me...
i'll b more than willing to be ur tu di... ^^
oh... not to forget...
to attend more of my religion activities...
i've been missing out alot alot alot...i wanna go back again...
ah har... suddenly thought of one last resolution...
i wanna become stronger...
i'll cry no more....
i'll b strong...
not gonna appear so weak... so fragile...so emotional...every single time...
not gonna owiz let ppl bully me.... !
i'll be strong...
and stronger... !!
and positive too !!! =)
*beWwWarEEEe*
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My first day of 2006...
was horrible...
i actually felt lyk i was dying...
i felt sick...
very sick...
yet i stil went for dance prac.. at xin's place...
cos i tot im okie...
but... i can merely full out ...
can merely mark the steps..
every part of my body seems to hurt by jus moving a small step...
it's so freakin cold.... and hot at the same time....
i took the train back... immediately fell aslp....
wanna cont taking the train...
but saw too many...
dark ppl...
waitin for the train too...
i noe i nid to sit dw and rest...
no choice...
force myself to walk... to the bus stop...
and wait for 174....
once on e bus... i sat down...
and fell into a deep deep slp...
hw sweet...
no dreams interupting me when im slping....
but it seems lyk... every beautiful things has to end soon...
and i woke up.... got down... to change bus...
i drag... yes... drag... my feet to the bus stop...
i dun dare to cross at red light... even though there's no cars...
cos...i noe...
i wont hav the strength to run if there's cars coming....
i waited...
so many... dark ppl ard me...
scared....
then bus came... once onboard...
my teeth started chattering .... i started shivering....
i cannot hold any longer...
why isnt anyone here?
finally... my stop... i reached...
drag myself back to home...
i cried when walking back...
too painful....
too much...
head feel lyk it's on fire... so hot.... so heavy... so much pain....
for a moment...
yes...
i admit i pity myself....
walked back... with my head down.... all e way...
till im back home...
bathed... and changed out of my clothes....
the freezing water scalded me... so painful...
force myself to search for medicine...took it...
and again...
i went into a deep deep slp....
how terrible...
to fall sick....
and to fall sick...
when no one noes...
even if i really died outside...
wld anyone noe ?
wld my frens noe ?
mayb....
mayb... when they read the newspapers the next day... or watch the tv...
or mayb... try to get me... for the studio key?
haha...
mayb....
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alot of ppl ask me....
why are u sad?
wat's wrong with u.,.. ?
most of the times..
i don reply...i simply shrugged my shoulders...
or i smiled back...and say..." nth is wrong ah.. im perfectly okie... siao... "
tat's bcos... i dunno wat's hurting me so much too....
i cant force the words out of my mouth....
but....
then....
i finally found out the ans....
on...
new year's eve....
tat sat....
my heart bleeds...
it's oredi in pieces...
why?
bcos of the ppl related to my heart....
u noe who u are....though i may not say it out....
every lil action... every word.... every thing u do....it's all link up....
you may not hav hurt me directly ....
but...
seeing the saddness in u...i feel the pain...
and it's...
twice the pain....
my family...how sad i am....
during tat period of them...
bcos of them..
now...
it's getting better... whole lot better....
tat side of my heart is healing... rapidly...
but on tat day...
the other side of my heart.... bleeds...
and breaks into pieces....
as i try to coax myself to slp...
i find tat...
my heart... really hurts...
it's tightening....
no kidding....
seeing.....
ppl.... not treasuring themselves...
not loving themselves...
i feel extremely helpless...
i noe...when i kip quiet...
u all feel helpless too...
i dun nid much...
i dun ask for much...
all i nid to recover fast...
is to see happiness in u all....
when i ask.. tell me...
if u don tel me...
how am i supposed to help u?
don shot me with wat i've said to you...
if you wan me to be happy..
then start letting me noe...
wat's da matter with you....
tat's the only way i can be really happy...
i see happiness in someone oredi...
and im very happy...
that cheered me up....
i promise i wont abandon u....
i'm just letting someone doing my job for u....
as for the rest....
pls don ever giv up....
cos im owiz here..... =)
*Beams chose to break the day*
*Yet unharmed creatures get away*
*Astonished, flabbergast, so i say*
*Joy will be coming somewhere in may*
*Show Me now and i'll give in the way*
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 11:35 PM
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