Friday, December 30, 2005
wat a disaster...
it was supposed to be a happy ending...
in the end...
turned out to be lydat..
jus wat were we thinking...
and doing..
why are we acting so recklessly....
w/o even tinkin twice on the consqeuences...
damn...
and bcos of tat..
we got ourselves landed into tis big shit...
how very "nice and memorable"...
to end our 2005...
woke up tis morning..
rem wat had happen yest nite..
uncontrollable saddness came over me immediately...
im sorry gal..
.u're so innocent....
we...we din stop them...
so sorry..
ya.. i noe..
sayin sorry..
wldn't mean a single thing...
you're so innocent...
gosh..
feelin so helpless...
watchin u....
fallin into the deep ocean...
and not being able to pull u up and save u frm drowning....
wat a disaster...
one goes...
another comes...
will there ...
even be an ending to all these??
save me....
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 2:32 PM
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Monday, December 26, 2005
Xmas is over... New Year awaits....
spent my xmas over at xin's place.. with NRA peeps...
fun... lotsa fun... tiring though....
thx gal.. for inviting all of us to ur place... =)
been observing all these while... and thinkin thru lotsa things....
NRA....
so many things... happening....
so many internal probs....must it happen?
so many grps... more and more coming up...
im seeein so much saddness ard me... tears....
why?
dunno... no one noes...
or rather... no one cares... or dares to face the prob...
felt tat... more n more ppl... are becoming so artificial....
everyone is jus tryin... putting up a front to please one another...
why are they doin tat?
cos they wan ppl to lyk them...
they wanna b welcomed...
dun wanna b left out...
sad to say...
it is really indeed happening in here....
i cant open up anymore...
im closing in...
don ask why...
think... and reflect...
i don wish to speak no more.... hear no more...
was talking to buDdy on our way back yest...
after the xmas dinner and the movie...
which... seriously.... i only felt tat...
im back to myself... back to normal...
during the movie session...
the dinner?
let's nt talk abt it....
frens.....
hw i owiz believe... that everyone will hav at least 1 true fren...
but... it feels lyk...
i dunno ....
wat defines frens actually ?
i dunno either... guess... no one noes the ans too....
someone who shows care n concern to u ?
someone who is owiz there for u?
someone who gives u support and courage when u need to?
or probably someone who makes u happy.. tries to please u everytime when u're upset?
but...
hw wld u noe... tat tis fren of urs...
wldn't talk behind ur back?
wldn't do stuff w/o considering the fact tat it'll hurt u?
wldn't betray u?
wldn't leave u alone when u desperately needed someone to be there?
isnt it scary?
we're just opening up ourselves to danger...
how wld u noe.... who is the one tat's really sincere... tat's really concerned abt u....
and who's the one tat's just putting up a mask in front of u... ?
frenship....
dun u tink... it's really a v shallow thing....
say for eg...
two childhood frens... can become enemies... within a few hrs...
just bcos of a small... simple matter... a misunderstanding.... or even rumors...
how easy it tat?
for rumors.. or misunderstandings
to break the frenship bond tat has been over a few years?
frenship...
it's really tat vulnerable...
i used to tell my family....
i trust my frens... i believe in them.. i loved them... i noe who's gd... who's really sincere to me... and i noe who's da bad ones...
right now...
i can tell u all honestly...
that im blinded now...
blinded by the evil stuff tat ppl do...
tat "frens" do....
no longer can i tell...
who really are my frens...
or rather...
my only truest fren...
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 4:23 PM
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Thursday, December 22, 2005
Losing ctrl...
falling dwn...
outta my mind...
gettin sick....
cant take it no more....
feeling sad...
time is running up...
no energy...
no stamina...
no nothing...
doors are closing in...
no rooms for laughter...
no rooms for enjoyment...
mind all messed up...
lost...
feel so insignificant...
no longer needed there...
gone...
i shall be...
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 3:25 AM
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Wednesday, December 21, 2005
today...
eh.. actually...
yesterday lah...
ermz.. mmm...
past midnight le hoh..
so is.. yesterday..
yeah... yesterday...
aiyah... mafan... !
20th Dec .... Tues...
is my sis bday leh !
lol... yes.. all i wanna say is tis.. hahahahah...
ehh... ya.. is her bday... went out today to buy her bday pressie...
on my way out..
she msg me.. i stun sia..
cos... cos.. ya.. we haben been talkin.. dunno for hw long.. yet to mention msgin each other...
mmm...
she msg me.. ask me.. whether did i msg her on msn last nite...
yeah... recalling... i did..
cos.. last nite.. i saw her online...
when she's oredi slping soundly on her bed... then i tot.. someone using her acc w/o her acknowledgement sia...
i panic.. then i msg the person... "Hey ! "
Buden the person din reply... so i din say much...
which is why.. she ask me today... then i told her... wat i've told u guys earlier lah...
then she said.. no lah... she forgot to log off last nite.. cos she was rushing home frm e office.. ya...
anyway... after tat.. nth much to say... i dunno wat to type either... in e end..
ya..
end of conversation... hope we'll get better bah... =)
Anyway...
went lookin ard for her present..
saw a v v v v v v v nice bag... baby pink... v v v v nice... really... !!!
don believe...
ask yen... hahahah..
super nice sia.. wanna get it for her...
buden.. last piece.. eek..
i dun lyk.. cos... v dirty ... alamak...
in e end.. gave up tat super duper nice bag... >_<
then... went inside mango...
tried on a brown color spag top..
damn nice also... v v v v v v nice..
don believe.. ask yen... ask xin... ask wu gui po...
LOL...
really nice leh.. somemore.. cheap also.. 23 bucks only..
wanna get tat one for my sis..
buden... u noe.. hw slow am i in makin a decision...
cos e top.. is... kinda.. sexy... hahahah..
really.. lacy.. v nice...
hahahah .. shit.. shd hav taken a pic of it..
omg... buden...
tinkin tat i might get a better pressie for her... so... i din buy...
sigh...then...
walk walk walk ard .... saw so many things i lyk !!!!
hahahaha...
alot of shoes... alot of bags... yeah yeah...
omg...
so happy...
xmas coming...
buden...
i no intention to buy xmas gifts leh.. lol...
cos... no money no talk..
plus... i dun see anything suitable leh...
i really cant believe tat... last time.. xmas...
i actually manage to get for all of my frens... al.. yeah... ard... 10 ppl plus leh... so many ppl !!!
omg.. im freakin rich last time... lol..
now ?
ermz.... let's nt talk abt it bah... hahahah....
guys... guys who are willing to spend their money on me...
hahahah...
pls come n find me... lol...
i nid to buy lotsa things !!! yeah... !!!
eh... come on lah... u tink im lydat meh? jokin de lah!
aiseh aiseh... mai siao siao...
wanna see my new hair cut a not ?
v v v sweeEEee leh...
erm.. of cos.. referrin to the pic lah..
buden the pic.. really v swEee lah...
taken using my own phone leh... swee rite? 
(taken using yen's lousy hp.. lol... so blur..)
don drool k... guys who wanna xian me... lol..
paiseh.. shd use proper eng..
guys who are interested... pls tag... hahahahah...
gals.. interested ??
hahahah... ermz... go find.. hahah.. go find... wu gui po bah !
lol...
jokin lah !!! errrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... nvm... hehehehehe... hao le... wanna stop le...
im lazy to continue...
funka coming up... pretty soon... damn soon...
let's all prepare for funka bah !!!
no slackin le hoh... those who stil tink.. there's time to slack... ha..
u can jolly well... giv up e tot of gettin into e finals...
harsh words... mean words..
buden.. it's da truth... yeah...
time is running out...
no time to enjoy..
no time to slack...
no time to gossip...
no time for rumours...
no time for worries... stop everythin ya ?
get ur ass working... let's start dancing then ! =D
~~**______ Chasing the clock _____**~~~
~~**______ Rushing the hours _____**~~
~~**_____ Hail! Time will nt stop____**~~~
~~**____ For you to pull up ur socks ____**~~
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 2:42 AM
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Friday, December 16, 2005
finally..
the anticipated 3 weeks of holiday for me...
is here...
finally..
i can slp late..
wake up late..
no nid to go for any more tutorial clzes...
finally....
yest..
was so tired...
cos e previous day.. i slept ard 4am...
stayed up doin e project..
my project mates din inform me earlier... jus told me wat im supposed to do.. and asked me to give it to them on thurs...
damn..
and i reached home ard 1am plus on wed loh...
no choice...
stayed up doing...
when i first opened up the doc..
read the first few lines..
i almost si diao....
omg...
just hw bad was it... i dun wanna say.. i dun wanna si duo yi ci....
i edit...
edit almost every paragraph...
spend lyk... 2 hrs plus editing their parts.... --__--
in e end..
when i reach my part..
i was too tired to think... my brain juice.. all consumed by editing....
damn....
luckily... i didn't stayed up all e way till morning to finish it up...
cos..
can hand in on fri... --__--
nvm abt tat... we stayed back to finish up the project after our clz yest...
they left me..
sitting there alone.. doin the project...
taking care of their stuff... alone...
for an hr plus... !
hw very nice of them...
and they din even say a word of "thank you" for taking care of their stuff !
i can jus take my stuff and walk off...
and leave their stuff unattended...
jus hate ppl taking me for granted... --__--
and their way of appreciating my help was...
to add on more stuff for me to do...
my plan for yest was to go shopping...
lookin for dance costumes too...
i almost gave up the thought...
cos of e additional parts...
luckily...
upon meetin nra ppl...
all of them...
persuaded me to go... tempted me to go..
cos they're watchin King Kong..
the show tat i wanna watch...
in e end.. hahah...
i left with them loh...
the show... a 3hrs show...
nice... it's thrilling.. funny... gross and touching...
it's nice.. though u can expect the ending...
the show.. reminds me of.. the TV show...
u noe... tv show.. always got King Kong de...
it's almost lyk.. watchin 2 tv shows...
one - King Kong , two - Jurassic Park
hahah... buden... nice lah.. i wonder... hw did the director found some a place... so creepy... and scary... eek.. all the flies.. bugs... bats.... are super duper big...
mayb..
they enlarge it using computer hoh ?
hahah... it's a nice show... sad ending though...
i feel sad for King Kong... he's jus a nice guy... er.. i mean.. animal.. hahaa... jus a lil too possessive... eek*
go watch it guys... ! =)
on e way home...
wu gui po passed me smthing... --__--
smthing so freakin expensive !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg... u really.. spend too much le... haiyoyoyoyoyo....
spend so much... stil got e wrong size.. wrong color...
LOL.....
har nar... joking de lah... i really lyk it...
buden... i she bu de to wear it...
haiyoyoyoyoyo... !!!!!
buden really thx... i mean it... thx..
see.. i dedicate one entry to u... b proud of it.. lol.... =D
ehhh... one more thing to report...
after i bathed finish hoh.. wanna start on my project le...
then she msg me... my project mate lah..
she ....
ask me do one more freaking part !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i see le..... i jitao sian....
sian to e max..
it's so freakin obvious tat they're jus making use of me..
either cos they're tired.. dun wanna do...
or they're simply lazy to do...
i dunno lah... i dun lyk it..
really glad tat... it's oredi e last sem...
phEw...
jus nid to ...
REN for few more weeks...
4 more weeks... after the 3 weeks of holiday... if im not wrong..
jia you bah! ^^
time to go... signing off...~ *ROARS* paiseh... influence by Mr King Kong... LOL...
~~*__ Sweet as it may get __*~~
~~*__ Fun as it may seem _*~~~
~~*___ Let's take a lil bet ___*~~~
~~*___ that no one is all that keen ___*~~~
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 11:18 AM
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005
well... im starting to cheer up... mayb jus a lil bit.. ha...
my mum... she did talk to me... talk as in ... the normal way kinda talk.. yeah... not shout.. nor
scream...
mmmm... my father... he's da nicest... which made me feel so god damn guilty... cos... rem... tat dinner im supposed to have it with my family ?
well... i lied... sayin tat my head hurts.... took panadol... wanna rest for a while first... and.. i slept at 9pm plus tat night...
then... ard midnight tat time... my father ... he woke me up... gave me a big bottle of water... put it right in front of my face... and ask me to drink...
he said... " hey.. drink more water... sick
should drink more water... later drink finish go back to slp bah.. "
the moment when he said tat... i feel lyk crying again.... my father... he's so nice to me...
yet... me as his daughter... lied to him... sayin im not well...
i felt really bad... perhaps... they were wrong to have given birth to me in e 1st place... sigh...
anyway... was talking to my mum jus now... she told me abt her 2 dreams... the 2 dreams... both about me...
first.. she dreamt tat.. she saw me standing outside my house... smoking... smoking in a hurry... cos im scared tat someone might catch me...
second dream... she dreamt tat someone was tryin to break into the house... she's blockin the entrance to our house... she tried to scream.. shout... nth came out ... then she saw me... standing at the telephone table... not helping her to block e ppl.. im just standing there... lookin at her... doin nth... then.. she screamed with all her might.... and... she woke up....
then... she cont saying... if there's any dissatisfaction with any of the family members... you shd talk it out... don ever kip it to urself... if u talk things out...
things will b solved... u'll feel much better too....
i kept quiet..... i dunno wat i shd say... how i shd reply... cos... i dun lyk to talk... i mean... sometimes... i wanna share my stuff with them.. or tell them how i feel when they do smthing... buden... i dunno how...
im not strong enuff... im... im just too emotional...
when it comes to family matters... whenever i tink of them... tink of the probs tat we're having.... i'll just feel damn sad... damn... sad.... i'll feel lyk crying...
which is why... i kip quiet... much as i want them to noe... but... my mouth just wont open... i tink... im scared... scared to cry in front of them... perhaps... i've put up a brave front for such a long long time.... most prob... they wont be used to seeing me cry anyway...
perhaps... they might even tink tat.. im such a cold blooded person... and i wont cry... cos.. i dun hav any feelings... i dunnno... lyk wat my sis said... im just so selfish... i dun give a damn to how my family feels... still.........
my mum... we've talked... my sis ? nah... not a chance... to talk...... who noes......... we might never be talking to each other again....
ytd.. went for hiphop clz... i felt lyk.. i cldn't dance at all... i dunno wth im doing.. i wont even consider wat i did ytd was dancing... cos... no... it wasn't,...
i cant rem the steps... once we've changed directions... i totally cant... i dunno why... suckiest dance ever... in my whole life.... i cant get e feel... i cant get e steps... i cant even freaking get e direction correct ! damn... made a whole damn lot of mistakes...
yeah.. ppl say.. learn frm the mistakes.. ya.. i noe lah.. im jus not happy with myself... i cant see a thing with my kinda standard... not to talk abt making my dream come true...
damn... i wanna go back hiphop again.. i nid to be versatile... i wanna b able.. to dance hiphop... to be able... to dance jazz funk.... my locking really sux... damn...
everything abt me is so wrong... why does everythin starts to crumble into my life now ? when... when will i b able.. to turn things ard... make things better? when?
i sat on the bus thinkin... tinking abt wat my buddy has said... she said... im a clubber... not a dancer.... mayb im really am... a clubber?
perhaps... i shdn't even step into dance... i shd jus go be a bartop dancer... wont tat be better? ha... wadever lah.. i cant afford to lose my concentration now... at least... wait till funka is over...
i nid a break.. i wanna go out.. go out of spore... alone... to a place.. where i can settle down my thoughts... where i can live... w/o any troubles awaiting for me....
where i dun hav to ans to anyone... dun hav to lie to anyone... where... i can cry when im sad..... luff out loud when im happy...
i finally understand the sentence... " it's time for me to go.. " i do feel lyk.. now is the time.. for me to really go... leave... and mayb... nv come back ? i
dunno... it all depends...
depends on wat?
no idea....
perhaps... im tinkin too damn much... i do tink alot.. im a thinker... cant blame... i dun wan to be
thinkin too... but... i just cant help...
frens ard me.. changing... ha.. ya..changing again... cant b helped... ppl do change... dont they? i do too... so i cant blame them...
xiong msg me... on sunday nite... a msg tat made me troubled n confused after reading the msg.... i din reply him... cos i dunno wat to say...
i dun wanna tink abt tis prob now...
guys...
not a big issue to me...
bf?
i can live w/o one...
im independent.... im free... and i cant commit.... mayb i'll go for
flings... better still.. no strings attached...
long entry.. time to stop.. bye.
~~*___ As darkness crawls in ___*~~~
~~*___ Cold air filled the room ___*~~~
~~~*___Alone in the shadows___*~~~
~~*__Finding the meaning to this life__*~~
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 11:59 PM
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Sunday, December 11, 2005
I've been clubbing...for the past 2 days...
Fri to zouk....Sat to Liquid Room...
im so tired...
is my life... back to clubbing again ? i dunno man... though i do really enjoyed it... cos i love dancing...
argh man.. i dunno wat i want either...i jus wanna drown myself with liqour...dance... enjoy myself... let my hair down.. let loose everything...
if it only helps to forget my troubles...
yes.. i noe... im only lying to myself... cos i noe.. doing all these.. wont help to solve any of my problems...in fact... it'll only create more troubles...
and.. i feel lyk.. everytime.. i tried to luff.. to enjoy myself...the problems... they jus keep popping up in my head... making it really hard for me to enjoy...
i dunno why... ppl ask me..wat's wrong with me?
i dunno.. i dunno hw to say.. only then i realised... im not expressive... i dunno hw to express myself in the correct way.. or rather... in the way where ppl cld understand.. and not feel
offended by my words or actions..
i noe frens are concerned... but at times.. i really dunno hw to say... wat i shd say... so i chose to keep quiet..
i noe for sure... tat im a frank person.. i speak wat's on my mind.. sometimes.. w/o even realising tat i've hurt ppl... until i reflect and tink back on wat i've said..
but...i dun tink it's bad to b frank.. to b honest... i lyk to speak up wat's on my mind.. whoever don lyk it.. then don turn to me.. ask me.. for my opinions...cos either i wont b giving my most honest n truthful opinion... or... i simply wont ans ur qns...
frens... frens tat are considered my close frens.. sometimes.. i kip to myself.. i dun lyk to go abt .. sharing my probs... cos... i dun wan ppl to feel sad... pity me... or watever shit..
mayb u guys... dun tink tat way... but... some probs... i'll rather kip it.. i want everyone to appear happy.. or rather.. i want everyone to be happy... im a pleaser... i am... i lyk to please ppl.. make ppl happy... cos.. i'll feel happy too.. and feelin happy.. cos it helps to lessen my burdens...
i lyk to be there for everyone... but i noe.. it's impossible... still... i kip trying... perhaps... tat's where... the misunderstanding.. comes in...
my family ... mayb... im really not such a gd daughter... i dun pay much attention to them... i dun show them as much concern as i showed to my frens... but.. it really doesnt mean tat i dun love them... i do... not showin it out.. doesnt mean i dont...
i do things in e dark.. i dun lyk to be recognized... i do things.. i don lyk to show to everyone.. so tat ppl will noe how gd i am... no... im not...
i lyk to secretly make ppl happy... but they don understand...
my sis said... im owiz outside.. hav i ever show concern to my family members? she asked me.. am i aware tat my bro hurt his leg again.. and his hand during work ?
hw the hell wld i not noe !!!! i was home before her tat day... tat day when my bro hurt himself at work... ! i saw how badly his hand was... i asked him...
i noe abt tat... who says i dun.. how can she assume tat i didnt.. when she came back late tat nite?
the first thing i did... when i came back the next day.. was to go inside my bro's room.. asked him abt his hand... did she noe ?
SHE DIDNT !
well... so im da bad person again... forever... my mum dislikes me... cos i dance too much.. i dun show concern.. i spoiled my sis's laptop... i got attitude prob.. i speak w/o tinking.. i owiz made her worry...
fine...
watever shit.. i dun care...
and my sis... bcos of the laptop.. she blew her top at me.. we haben been speaking to each other.. for how long ? i dun rem...
she said.. i took her for granted... i dun respect her... fine... i dun.. im the worst bitch... worst sis.. worst daughter stil living in tis world...
i ought to be banished to hell... rite?
wat's da point of living now ? u tel me... living with who ? my family ? are they still my family members? family members tat forget ur birthday? how great is tat?
u tell me... yes.... mayb forgettin the bday is jus a small issue... but.. how can my sis even say tat to me... she said.. she wanted to call me ... on 1st of dec... to wish me happy bday... but.. bcos of tat... she said.. i dun even show any concern.. i dun respect her... why shd she even bother abt me... ? isnt she sweet to me ?
and my bro.. he totally forgotten abt my bday.. when my fren came to my place.. he bought me a cake... which none of my family members did... my bro came back with his fren.. he saw the cake.. he tot it's my fren's bday! how cool is tat? and my mum... she din even say... happy bday to me... not at all... nth... NTH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So here she is.. my sis.. complainin tat i dun show any concern towards family members? why? why dun i show any ? well, did she show any to me at all ? she noes abt my absence in sch.. did she even bother to ask ? NO.
did she ask abt my dance? no.. never... did she ask.. abt my work ? how i pay my bills when im nt workin? no.. she didnt...
and now she's complaining tat im not showing concern to her? she complainin tat i didnt ask her anythin abt her new job ???
since when did she show it to me ? i wrote a letter to her... few days back... she replied... the first sentence.. " ok, so you finally decided to take time to settle tis situation. was wondering if u even bother abt tis matter." wtf ?
i pluck up the courage to write to her... my tears are rolling down as i write the letter... does she even care? or she's tinkin is tat.. i dun bother abt it at all !
and here i am.. so troubled over the issue... not able to concentrate properly... feelin slpy everytime.. why? cos i owiz cant slp properly ! i owiz ended up cryin to my pillows....
and the last sentence... "talk to me only after you are sure that you want to change for the better"
.......... change? i don see a prob why i shd change... i dun see the prob.. it's not lyk.. i tink my attitude is owiz right.. no.. but i dun understand.. wat she's tryin to imply ... wat am i supposed to change?
huh? get back home early everyday? don go for dance prac ? show concern ? wat? everyday ask my sis how's her life ? her work ? check if my bro hurt himself again ?
to the hell with it lah..
tonight.. im supposed to go out.. for family dinner... celebrate my dad's bday... i dun even feel lyk goin... why? cos im no longer part of the family... they said.. i've neglected them... whenever they speak to me... im owiz givin them uninterested replies...
why don they tink... why am i reacting tis way? izzit bcos i got some probs in sch ? with frens ? they don .... or they tink was... im rude... i dun feel lyk talkin to my family any more... and thus.. they see no pt talkin to me...
my mum.... whenever she talks... she shouts... she no longer talks to me... i dun lyk it.. wat can i do ? shout back at her? i wouldn't... i'll jus kip quiet... cos no matter wat i say... im stil in da wrong... why? cos she's my mum....
i really don wanna go for the dinner... i wanna stay at home... slp.... cry my heart out... do they noe ? they dont... do they care? i doubt so...
i living alone.... no longer... do i feel the love.... it's a wrong for me to exist in this world...
no words shd come out frm my mouth again... then no probs will ever rise up... everyone will be happy... wont they? im jus a devil.. a trouble... tat brings unhappiness...
im hurt.. im upset... im heart broken... broken again... by my dearest ppl of all...
the pain is unbearable... it's everywhere... where can i go....everytime.. when the sky turns dark... i noe i must return.. return to the palace of ice... no more warmth in the house... no more love.. for me... i dun wish to go back... i'll rather loiter ard.. go out... alone...
don ask me.. abt tis.. i dun wish to talk.. treat me normally... not lyk im some kinda lost child w no family... i cant stay any longer... i hav to go... to somewhere.. where i wld b accepted.. wld b loved... if anythin tat holds me back frm leaving.. tat wld only be...
my frens...
~~*__ Broken into zillion of pieces _*~~
~~*__ never will it be back again __*~~
~*__ Unbearable pain, uncontrollable tears __*~
~*_____ tat's how im feelin now_____*~
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 8:22 PM
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
hiya my dear blog...
time for some update ya..
well.. my 19th bday was over le... i'm really 19 le... alamak...!
mmmm... celebrated with evelyn on thurs.... then with wei jie on fri late afternoon, jean n floydie at nite... then with NRA peeps on sat... then with family members next sunday... (cos my dad bday coming also... hehehe...)
wow.... siong hoh... i v tired sia... being bday gal.. not easy... hahaha...
anyway... tis yr... not bad.. considering alot of ppl remembered my bday... those whom i've tot... already forgotten abt my presence...haha...
but ya... they dropped me a msg...
instead... my closest... dearest... ppl ard me... didnt.....
don wanna talk abt sad thing now.. or i'm gonna cry again...
anyway... had a very fulfilling week... a very busy week.. full of performances.... on wed.. thurs... sunday... wow...
im really tired...
mmmm... tis entry... i wont talk much lah... see photos... enuff bah...
To Jean n Floydie... Thnx for accompanying me... thru e nite... noe tat ur back ache (jean) and noe tat u spend a whole lot of money on us... (floydie).. thnx... !
and... i really really love the flowers... ! hahah.. it's not my first bouquet of flowers lah... buden.. it's e first for my bday... ! i tink.. hahah... muacks.. ai si ni men le... !!! =D
To NRA ppl... thx for all e effort made.. i wanted to msg all of u guys.. who were there.. buden i reached home too late.. i fell aslp while typing the msg.. in e end.. i didnt send to anyone.. instead.. i del the msg!!!!
LOL...
Buden anyway... thx alot !! muacks... u guys roxxx my day....
To the one.. who sacrificed herself... thx too !!! i'm really touched by ur actions.. though not v nice to do tat in e public.. hahahah... thx...! love ya lots...
To the ones who had headache tinkin abt hw to trick me... thnx too !! hahah.... finally u can give ur brains a rest yeah? ^_^
To all NRA ppl... i loveeeeeee u all.... !!!! ==)
Alrite... time for pics bah.... enjoy.... *more will b updated once i've received...*
Summarized everythin lah.. easier.. LOL....
My mini cake... eh.. v nice okie !! *slUrps*
Me...... !! at NYDC....
She loves beer...!
I hate beer... !
On da platform... dunno why i look so fierce hoh.. lol... beats me...
She's loving it ! lol...
~~*_____ Respect ain't easy to gain _____*~~
~~*______ You show me respect ______*~~
~~**_____ And i'll show you mine _____*~~~
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 1:10 AM
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