blacK solitude

Monday, May 29, 2006

I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I'd held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
now I'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts, my once plesant dreams,
your voice it chased away all of the sanity in me

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone but though you're still with me
I've been alone all alone
when you cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I'd held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me...

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 1:01 AM

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

i'm gonna change
from now onwards
im changing
some of u may lyk it
some of u may totally dislike it
not that i really care thou
selfish as it may sound
but if u really noe and und me
u wld hav done tat long long time ago
and not wait till now

i've had enuf
really
i've heard so many
i've been thinkin abt tis for so long
it's too draggy
i cant take it
i really cant
i noe u're gonna be pretty much the only one who's very affected
im sorry
but
tis cant go on anymore
i'll breakdw
and
i wldn't dare to noe
wldn't dare to even say out the consequences

i'm nt gonna b led by the nose
i'm nt gonna b under anyone's ctrl
i dun see the need to report to anyone
i dun wish to explain for my actions no more
i dun hav to do a single thing if i dun wan to
i hav my own freedom
i want my own freedom back

no one
no one can make me
no one will ever make me
no one shd ever make me feel guilty for doing smthing that isn't wrong
i wldn't nid to go into hiding anymore
i'm tired of sittin in the darkness
tired of it

stop..
im jus not who i used to be

how did things turn out to be tat way?
its depressing
jus go
leave me alone

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 3:09 AM

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

voila!
im back to bloggin
nt tat im very eng (free) now
im stil as busy as possible (abap)
im jus taking a breather by bloggin

anyway
life goes on rite?
with or w/o bloggin
i bet everyone reads my blog
everyone is dying for me to update
cant help it
im attractive
lol
wat to do

Von Spears
u'll definately luv her
if u hav ears.

omg
i cant believe
im jus so poetic
cant help it
it's inborn
im a talent!
genius !
my my..
beware
i've got 6th sense
i can sense everythin that has a 6 in it
for eg
i can sense that on the 6th of June, 2006
there's gonna be a screening of a horror flick..
i even can sense the name!
it's called "The Omen"

tat's rite
believe it or not
wait till 6th of June comes
watch it
and u'll drop ur nose
jus lyk terence did
lol

but he's grateful tat he dropped his nose
cos he finds it too big
way too big
and it's taking up alot of space in his small lil face
and it's blockin his view
he cant dance properly during ann's clz
he said tat to me
over msn
i swear i din made tat up !
i swear with my heart crossed (or was it the fingers?)

anyway
im off to bed now
why?
cos

I NID THE GODDAMN REST LA!
lol
sorrie
im too excited abt gettin my beauty slp
lol
bye fans

*signs off*

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 3:03 AM

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