blacK solitude

Friday, July 28, 2006

I really wish
tat u wld say things out
instead of keepin it to urself...

nv ever tink tat
by sayin it out
it'll hurt or affect me alot...

cos nt saying
the consequences actually double up...

sorry for the things tat i've nt done

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at times
i get so frustrated with myself
with my life
with my everything

i get mad
real mad

i tot of death
tot of escaping
tot of ignoring
tot of everything

but i din do it
time is nt right yet

when the time comes
off i'll be

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Dun learn to und me
cos nobody will,
nobody can,
nobody noes,
what am i doin
why did i do tat
cos,
i dun even und it myself.

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 3:28 AM

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Monday, July 17, 2006

i miss u...
i din realise i love u so much
miss u so much
treasure u so much
till the day
when u turned ur back and walked away frm me...
i watched the tears fallin down frm ur eyes
i cldn't help myself
as tears start falling down on my face too...

Lotsa sweet memories start coming back
since the first day we met and went out
till the day when i went to send u off...

yes, hw ironically that ppl owiz say
that they don treasure what they have now
till the day when the person is gone,
then they'll regret..
i've owiz told myself,
nv to regret anything
nv to let tat happen btw me n my frens..
still,
i cldn't kip tat promise...

the day i went to send u off,
i realise
u're the sis that i really loved so much
u're the one
who has been there for me thru my ups and downs during sec sch times..
we shared everything...
excluding bf... lol...

u taught me hw to be smarter
u protected me
u made me learn and grow
u stood by me...
u tried to be understanding towards me cos im owiz bz with my dance n i dun hav time for u
u encouraged me when i was feelin down
u made me luff with all ya ugly actions
i dunno wat to do w/o u being in my life
cos u're the best thing tat ever happen to me... =)

i love u sis
come back soon okie
u promise to come back for my bday celebration..
i'll b waitin for u
i miss u
study hard there...
jia you k... =)
muackz..

p.s i miss u v much also... nv tot it cld be so painful...

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 2:26 AM

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Friday, July 14, 2006

You're so intuitive, it's like you have a sixth, seventh, and eighth sense.

You connect with others freely and easily - and you tend to have many best friends.

Warm and caring, it's hard for you to close your heart to anyone.

Affection is like air for you - you need to give and receive it to survive.

Your strength: Your universal compassion

Your weakness: Your unpredictable mood swings

Your power color: Mauve

Your power symbol: Butterfly

Your power month: February

how very true of it.....
omg...

try it...

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz/

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 1:40 PM

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Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Thank you all
for everything u've done
Appreciated it.

Take gd care of urselves
Be happy
Love everyone ard u
including urself

It's time for me
to shut off

Gd bye~

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 2:12 AM

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Thursday, July 06, 2006

I feel like i dun really noe u at all
no, i dun
i dun understand ur thinkin
i tot i knew
i tot i really knew
i've woken up
now tat i finally see the truth myself
i dunno u at all
not at all

why?
why are there times when i feel like the one standing right in front of me isnt the one tat i noe?why do i feel like thru out all these times
we've had tgt...
it doesnt count at all
to hw much i really noe abt you ?

wad is wrong?
wad exactly is the prob?
wad did i say or do ?
why are u behaving tis way...?
im no fool

why are things goin tis way again?
tell me if im wrong
tell me if im thinkin too much again
tell me
cos i really wanna noe
i can't bear it
no...
i really cant..
i tot u promised?
dun simply make empty promises to me
if u dun intend to keep it

i cant take it anymore.

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 2:35 AM

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Monday, July 03, 2006

"" For what they never told me of,
And what I never knew.
It was that all the time, my love,
Love would be merely....
you.""

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 2:19 PM

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