Friday, February 24, 2006
you noe wat
i've jus realised smthing abt myself
smthing tat is jus so freakin true
to the extent that
im cant believe it..
i tink
i'm..
wat im gonna say later...
is smthing truly amazing..
smthing which no one had even tot of ..
i tink..
im..
well.. ya..
you all noe..
mmm..
why don ya all make a guess??
hahaha...
just kidding..
i noe u all out there
are dying to hear wat im gonna say bout myself rite?
*nods*
i just knew it..
well...
*ahem*
i just wanna say..
i finally realise smthing bout myself..
smthing that is jus so freaking true and amazing...
...
(sorry! din realise im repeating.. hahaha...)
alrite.. here goes...
well...
i realise that...
i...
ahEm..
pls be beware..
wat's gonna happen next is not suitable for ppl with weak hearts...
poor stamina... and lack of brain cells...
hahah..
well..i jus realise that...
im...
well..
im a BITCH...
yes..
tat's wat im gonna say..
im a BITCH...
i jus realise it..
truly a BITCH
nonoononon...
don start consoling me... there there.. sit down everyone!
calm down...
im fine with it..
im fine with da name..
im truly a BITCH...
don get so worked up by that word...
i noe you guys
deep down inside
ya all agree with tat rite
it's just tat
u guys don dare to tell me
don dare to admit...
it's really okie...
well...
im not sad to admit tat i am one..
one BITCH..
cos...
im...
B eautiful
I ntelligent
C onsiderate
T alented
H ot
well well well...
tat explains why i call myself a BITCH rite??
hahahah...there there.. no nid to get so excited over me...
haha..
im jus explaining to the crowd...
there you go...~
i've got evidence to wat im saying alrite
i dun say nth w/o any prove..
it'll be up soon...
da pictures !!!!!!!!!!!
LOL...jus wait.. yeah.. wait...
as the saying goes~
not everyone can become a BITCH
well...
it is so very true !
i look ard me..
frens ard me..
*shakes*
none of them fits the criteria...
hahahahahaha....
alrite..tis is a rather
senseless entry
lol
but....don tell me you din enjoy it !!
LIARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
muahahahah
BYE !!
TO THOSE... who are supposed to be studying...
STOP READING MY BLOG !!!
lol...
oopPPsss... sorry bout the caps...
im still in my BITCH world..
lol...
well...
study hard everyone...
LOL...
why does tis sound so anti-climax...
hmmm...i'll rephrase it..
* study hard everyone...
cos u all aint as INTELLIGENT as me !!!
better get all ya noses down in ya notes !!!!*
yeaHHHHhhh *wolf cries*
APplause!!!!
LOL....
so much better... !! hahahahah...
be off !!!
BITCH
lol
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 11:00 PM
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Thursday, February 23, 2006
Gals of TB13..... Guys with us.. * with credits to XH... =) * xxxx TB13 xxxx * More to be updated... =) *
xxxx Yin Yang xxxx
Eeeeeekkkkksss ! LOL
Isnt she blissed? LOL
Da Royalties ! ^^
Red Dou Milk Ice..... =D
V'day Grp Outing !!
(yessssssssss.. taken frm Min's blog.. LOL... )
Me n MinMin n our lovely "heart-shaped" balloons!! =D
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 9:05 PM
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Saturday, February 18, 2006
i tot i knew
i tot i can
i tot i will pull thru
but everything jus kips coming back
i dun wan tat to happen
i dun wan to dream no more
i dun dare to fall aslp
cos i jus kip dreaming 'bout you
you in my mind
who are you exactly
im scared/confused/troubled
i jus cant seem to get u off my mind
every single dreams
you'll b inside
i tell myself to stop
i tot it'll help
i force you outta my mind
but you jus kip coming back
this shd hav nv started at all
it's all wrong
wrong...
if only i cld turn back time
stop all these from happening
but i noe it's impossible
give me some more time
i noe i'll b able to heal
when time goes by
believe me wont ya?
i believe i can
and i will
walk out of this
Mr. Sandman
pls turn on your magic beam
take my dreams away
i want to be able to slp
peacefully again
Dont hav nobody to call on my own
Falling again
I'm falling under
Wont anybody catch me ?
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 12:21 PM
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Friday, February 17, 2006
Shed your inhabitants
take my hand
follow me
i do not bite
the view is great
open your eyes
do you see?
the wonders ahead
i want to share
travel the world with you
so much to discover
countless adventures
we can take it slow
its not meant to overwhelm
don't be afraid
im with you
will you come?
take my lead
trust me please
i just want you to be happy
My sweetest dream became my worst nightmare
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 2:35 AM
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Sunday, February 12, 2006
my dreams
are filled with ur presence
dont ask me why
im dreaming
with you in my mind
forever
this cant be true
no it cant
i dreamt of him again
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 10:11 AM
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Wednesday, February 08, 2006
had a dream
dreamt that i was in the car
with some nra peeps
and my family members
reached a place
suddenly the door at my side flunked open
then saw tis big big scary cat
super big cat running up to me
i was so terrified
i quickly shut the door
jus in time before the cat gets me
i moved over to the other side of the door
heard alot of voices
sayin " bring the bulldog in ! bring the bulldog in and scare tat cat away !"
then i saw the bulldog jumped up into the seat
jus beside me
i patted the dog
and got off the car
then
saw some nra peeps playin with the cat
the cat was supposed to be chasing ppl
in the dream
it turn out to be ppl chasing the cat
i rem
yen was chasing the cat
sam was behind luffin at 'em
the rest..
all walked over to the coffeeshop
where we initially had wanted to go for our dinner
i was scared
i saw the cat
big cat
i walked alone
over to the coffeeshop
owiz turning ard
lookin out for the cat
then i saw it
the cat
walking towards me
i ran
the cat chased
and i cried
i was so terrified the cat will catch me
will scratch me
the rest of e ppl ?
they were luffing
no one was helping me
when they noe how terrified i am
and they saw me crying
they stood there luffing
telling me that the cat wont hurt me
then
the cat lost interest in me
it stopped
change it's direction to somebody else
i cant rem
i let out my breath
tears stil running down
i walked over to the coffeeshop
slowly, dragging myself there
then i saw them
dou, fred,alex,xiang,wang qin, allegra, ter, ken, ariel, buddy....
all sitting down there
luffing, talking happily
no one seems to notice my presence
no one bother to ask wat happen
i went to my empty seat beside wang qin
sat down
den all of them started saying" come.. let's dig in..im so hungry... "
no one bothered to ask me why
why i teared..
perhaps no one saw my teary eyes
zixiang sitting beside me
asked me
"why you walked here alone ? where are e rest? "
i din ans
i jus stood up
and left
then
i saw min and joyce walking towards the coffeeshop
jus as i wanted to turn and run away frm everyone
they saw me
i freeze
then i started running
they chased
screaming for my name
i was desperate to lose them
i ran into a clinic
full of ppl
tried to hide somewhere
but they found me
then
i cont running
over to some HDB flats
i ran and ran
they din catch up with me
but they nv stop chasing
i ran up the stairs
ran across the streets
across the drains
all the way
till i saw the morning sun
then
it was time for me to return back
with the 2 of them stil hot on tracks
suddenly
i was woken up
by the sound of music
i tried to sit up on my bed
but the dream
took away all the energy that i've had
somehow
the dream that i've had
may not be a dream after all
---------------------------------------------
after the dream
i realised that
all e dreams that i've had before
i'll be always running
or
i'll be chasing someone else
i wonder
why am i always running in my dream?
wat does it mean?
am i running away frm reality?
i dunno
who am i running away frm?
who am i chasing after?
wat will happen if i stop running and face watever is there for me?
wat will happen if i don giv chase ?
seriously
all these qns start rushin into my brain
searchin for the ans
but i cant
i cant give
nor can i find the ans to all these qns
" Think 'bout wat others hav tat you don hav . . . "
is that the answer?
i dunno either
wat do i not have?
genuine happiness? love?
beats me...
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 12:51 PM
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Sunday, February 05, 2006
Happy.
im happy.
haha..
contented?
yeah...
quite contented..
im satisfied too..
im happy..
im really serious abt me being happy.
to the extent where
i feel lyk doin cartwheels every now and then
why?
cos im happy
i want to shout it out to the whole world
i want to climb on top of the highest building
and scream
"im happy! im really am !"
yes.. tis is called happy, not crazy, u get me ? lol
as i was walking hm,
the wind blowing my hair gently
whispering good nothings into my ears
i felt blissed
i felt happy
the real kinda happiness
that i've long forgotten abt it
i felt so much lighter
felt lyk a heavy load has finally been lifted off me
for the very first time
no longer do i carry it along wherever i go
i felt lyk dancing
and i did
i did a lil dance
in the middle of the road
i thank my angels
and invited 'em to dance with me
they made a circle around me
holding hands,
smiling and singing along
to the music that i'm dancing to
i was happy
i was on ecstasy
i smiled
i looked up into the sky
i can smell the fresh air
feel the softness of the clouds
and the warmth coming frm the sun
it's been such a long long time
since i've experienced tis kinda sensation
truly amazing
i would say
the passageway is finally opened
i can breathe as per normal
my heart aches still
but not as much compared to last time
i feel the real me
is here for the very first time
im out
i've break through
i've escaped,
walls can hold me down no more
for i am, who i really am
stronger and stronger
every passing day
'thou shall no longer weep,
smile, fear no more'
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 3:35 PM
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Wednesday, February 01, 2006
lost for words again
if this goes on
someday
im gonna be mute
sometimes
i realise
not saying much,
keeping quiet aint so bad after all
i mean,
at least you wont say anything wrong
you wont offend ppl
you wont hurt anyone's feelings
you wont hav to think before you say it out
you wont hav any probs with pronounciation
you wont hav to entertain ppl whom you don even lyk
so many pros...
tell me,
why shd i even open my mouth and speak?
if i speak
i will have to spend time thinkin hw to put words in a nicely way so that no one will b offended
consider this..
let's break it down:
*spending time thinking = energy wasted = tiredness = no motivation to study/work/do anything = debarred/fired = parents upset with you = relationship with parents affected = relatives look down on you = frens leave you = OUTCAST
*offended ppl = ppl hurt = backstabbing = frenship lost = LONER
*bad in pronounciation = being mocked at = dont dare to speak = NO CONFIDENCE
oh my god..
jus look at hw terrible it is to talk..
it all ends up in a bad bad way
if u dunno hw to speak in a way
where ppl wld lyk
where ppl wld find it acceptable
it all takes just one word
one word..
and u'll b penalised forever...
thou shall remain mute
speak only when necessary
~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 12:09 PM
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