blacK solitude

Friday, August 19, 2005

Heyz..

Im back blogging again.....

heez....

Having EM tutorial now.....

Feel v slpy..... so must type smthing.....

Oh..... I did my hair u noe...

Color and dyed my hair... kekekeke...

But.. look abit lian ...... Abit only !!! >_<

Buden.......... still v nice !!! LOL....

I lyk my hair... hahaha... Hope e color fades abit.. cos.. lyk abit too bright le.........

LOL....

*shy lah.....*

Hahah..... ehhhhhh...... I forgot wat im gonna say le...

Shucks.....My memory...

Really getting worse leh...

Oh no.... mmmm......

Today is Friday hoh...

Oh..... Ya..... I rem.....

Yest was his bday...

he msg me... ask me..

whether am I free on wed..

Cos heard frm evelyn tat he celebrating his bday at kster.........

but I din reply...

Not bcos I dun wan too...

cos... my hp... was cut off on tues...

I dun hav money to pay my hp bill...

Tat’s y... I din reply him...

I din call him to wish him happy bday too...

Cos every wed I hav dance prac...

Till v v late...

I din call when I reach home either...

Cos too tired le.. fell aslp immediately ...

Then… yest...

I msg him...

Was e last one to msg him… (I tink so)

Then he replied...

Told me tat...

he heard frm evelyn abt my line being cut off...

And...

He...

He transfer money into my account...

Ya... not a large sum of money...

But I feel so bad...

I din use it...

Don intend to use it...

Wanna transfer e money back to him...

And.. on wed morning...

Evelyn pass smthing to me....

It was frm him..

He bought a watch for me....

A white Adidas sports watch ...........

When....

I din even turn up or get him anything on his bday ...

Sigh...

All these actions seriously did touched me ...

But it confused me also...

I mean.. after such a long period of time...

He’s still doin all these...

Worrying abt me...

Buying this and tat for me.....

Haiz.....

Confused lah..... Dunno wat am I gonna do ....

He said...

he regretted letting me go.....

If he had one more chance....

He wouldn’t hav done tat....

I felt really guilty ...

Cos I koe.. I made him really ..... really.... heartbroken....

Sigh.......

I shd hav nv gotten into a relationship at all....

Cos I cant commit........

Cant sacrifice my practice time for relationship..........

Ended up.....

hurting him........

And making myself troubled....

Which.....Affected ppl ard me........

Haha............Aiyah......... will blog later again.........

Suddenly my mind went blank..

forgot wat I wanna say le......

Tink my tutorial goin to end soon.....

Yeah....~~!

Alrite..... Ciaoz.....

~~**__Ppl owiz say, life is full of choices

______no one ever mentions________

_______Fear________**~~

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