blacK solitude

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

today...

was the only day....

i don hav any dance prac...

i wore slippers today....

felt so xing fu....

hahaha...

finally....

my both legs...

get to breathe some fresh air....

rather than being kept inside .....

covered up.....cant breathe properly....

aWwwwwww......

my poor pair of feet.....

promise i'll bring u guys for a foot massage when i hav e money alrite??

which would probably....

take quite some time...

meanwhile....

jus cont to bear with me....

LoL.........

today....

went for SM tutorial......

Mrs Koh... was pissed off with us again...

chased us out of e clz room....

cant blame her...

cos... we didn't do as wat she has instructed us to ....

e whole clz....

only 3 ppl read e textbk..........

can tell she was really upset with us lah...

.guess she was tinkin...

why on earth.....

is yr 3 marketing students behavin lydat ......

come on ....~

we hav our own life.....

our own probs too......

we nid to work......

in order to survive.....

pls b more understanding ..........

read e textbook ???

i'll read it if i hav extra time....

look at e projects tat we hav....

and how much time are we given ???

it's so freakin limited !!!

so freakin short..........!!!

few more weeks to our integrated presentation....

now u're chasing us out of ur tutorial clz .....

jus bcos we din read e textbk.... ?

damn..............

students.....

we.....

really hav a lot of stress....

not showing it out... doesn't mean we don hav any....

is it really so hard to understand ??

u koe.....

Life..... does it really hav to b tat sucky??

as i was tinkin back... of those times....

i've had during my poly life.... though i've nt grad yet....

i was tryin to recall....of those gd memories...

guess wat?

90% of them.....

were frm....

my cca....

my club.....

my dance mates....

why izzit so ??

ppl w/o cca....

u wont be able to understand.....

e kinda feeling....

when someone really understands ur situation....

cos tat person has been in ur shoes before...he'll understand watever u're goin thru....

cos he's been thru before....

how abt sch ? my clz mates??

i admit....... when i was in yr 1....

it was pretty fun....

then....

things starting changin... becomin more n more complicated....

ppl change..... backstabbing is so normal tat it happens everyday.....

and everything is brought up to yr 2.....

till now... im in yr 3....

things..... still remain da same..........

it's really sad..... to see things lydat happening.....

if only..... things cld become better.....

Don get me wrong....

i'm not lookin ppl to pity me....

sympatize me.....

i dun nid all tat....

i jus nid support.....

nid ppl who really cares..... not pretendious......

not putting on a mask in front of me...

if anyone is unhappy with me....

pls,tell me frankly....

so tat i can change.....

change for da better sake.....

backstabbing.... gossiping....

wont do any one good.....

it jus adds on to ur karma...

believe it or not...

one more thing....

ppl....

jus try to understand....

even if u've never been in my shoes before....

jus try to hav more patience ....

all these small actions.....

does really help....

and it all means alot to me...

i'm really tired....

tired of trying.....

tired of doin things.... that i don wanna do..........

tired of pretending tat im alrite.... when deep down inside... i koe im not...

tired of thinkin tat... someday... things will go smoothly for me...

tired....

jus tired.....

and tat "Q" word jus kip appearin into my mind.... constantly....

~~*__ how can one b motivated

when no one cares... __*~~

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 11:02 PM

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