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Monday, May 04, 2009

at least they talk to you
be thankful.

-tired of it always repeating.

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 1:51 AM

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Monday, April 13, 2009

went to watch
Singapore Best Dance Crew.
needless to say.
im super proud, touched, happy for every single group.
=)

thank you.
bcos,
watching you guys on stage today..
makes me wanna come back to dance more frequently
makes me so wanna improve on everything cos im super jealous n envy of the improvements
makes me want to compete and work hard and take part in competition again.
yes, i noe groove just ended nt long.
but it feels super long to me.

i miss dancing

and imptly i miss you all..

seeing you all improved...
i really v happy
and proud
and jealous too
hahahahah.
envy lah.. :):)
but really

thank you.

jiayou everybody.. don give up okie? esp nt when..
you noe it best
that you're happiest when you're dancing.
doing smthing that you love.
thou at times it gives you the stress
the pressure
the bad attitude.
end of the day,
that's what makes us happy.

to checkamatez;
im happy being with the group
thou nt always happy
cos im owiz late
and i hate being late if you knew me.
i hate being ALWAYS LATE FOR TRAININGS.
but im glad my team members are trying to be considerate.
thank you.
thou shimin always COMPLAINT. LOL.
i noe i din set a gd example as a senior,
cos im always LATE.
but if we meet on days when im nt working,
esp in the morning
I WILL BE ON TIME OKIE!
hahaha. okie, shall not justify or defend.
i know i didnt managed my time properly.
then again,
i enjoyed with this group
a fresh new group
really
funny yes, and we're so infamous for our "moqi"
hahahahaha
but, watching out video that day,
im srsly proud.. and happy..
cos first .. very first time we're neat. :)
and maintain the energy..
happy*

jiayou ok?
checkamatez isnt over. AH-HAH!
wait till and see. ~ =)

thx min for being the initiative one, I still cannot forget the "butt shake" LOLOLOLOLOL

thx ivan for being the.. quiet one. LOL. cos everyone grp needs a quiet person who only says the right thing at the right time.

thx cash for being the retard one. LOL. forever ................................... you don need me to explain. but u're still the zhui shuai qi de. :)

thx yen. PUI. LOL. for being the parrot.. owiz repeating n repeating n reminding us to ctrl and nt to overly full out..

yeah. imptly.
happy. =)
will be back for dancing.
improvements!

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 12:51 AM

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Thursday, January 01, 2009

sorry ppl..
i noe i promise to dedicate entries to you.
i swear to hollywood that i oredi typed out and saved it as draft..
supposed to hav it up..
then..
then..

SOOOBBBBZZZ

BOOO HOOOO HOOO....

I DUNNO WHY IS THE ENTRY GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DUNNO HW CAN IT HAPPEN
WHY IS THE ENTRY NOT HERE ANYMORE.....
=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

i cannot believe it.
i cannot cannot cannot
one min i saw it
then ..
then...
then...
the next few days..
i see and want to edit..
then no more!!!
no mroe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=((((((((((((((((

SORRY PPL.
gimme some time to type again..
i really super upset..
and sian
cos my entry..
really
super
ultimate
freaking
lone
i mean..
long...
and sincere...

THEN ALL GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kill me pls!! *bang the wall*
*blood oozing down...*

Sorry................
harnar
i promise, i'll do it k...
promise promise.. promise....

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 11:41 PM

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Monday, December 01, 2008

hey ppl.
i jus check my blog and realise..
my last entry was on 25th Oct. LOL.
SUPER ULTIMATE LONG.
lol

okie
tis post, is not a random post like orange xia lan ling who is also my BUDDY.
lol.
but tis is a meaningful post
why?
cos................
i've blog hop.. and realised everyone talkin abt danzation. LOL.
its really fine, i mean normal.. but hahahaha..
actually wat im saying is..
im also goin to talk abt smthing related to not only danzation, but to our dance.. :)

everyone is undergoing alot of stress;
everyone has their own problems, be it dance, personal, exams, work, r/s etc...
its definately not easy trying to tell urself not to let dance be affected by the external factors
i really understand
because each day, every single minute
i am also trying.
sometimes it work
most of the times it failed.
thus end result i would be so stressed up
till i did badly at work and dance.
till i have pimples outbreak. (hey, tis is really affecting me alot. =( super low morale each time i see the pimples)
till i cant slp at night much as i want to.

looking back,
have you stand back for a min and think
what could u have done to make things better?
practice more if unsure of steps?
prioritise dance and work accordingly?
instead of being so down, depress and letting ur emotions control ur mind, brain and body
why not use the extra time to practice, to study, to work or even to rest?
*this is the usual advice that CHIEN YEN always gives me when im at my lowest peak =) Of cos her ANG MOH isn't that good.. i helped to rephrase everything.. LOL. *

come on ppl,
NRA-ians !
this isnt the toughest part of our journey..
this is only the BEGINNING!!!!
if you let urself down now,
who else can pull u up?

jiayou ppl.
jiayou my dear steam girls
jiayou my non-steam ppl
most imptly,
jiayou everyone.
and jiayou to my dear idol - Ann Tan. =)

oh,
by the way,
although i strongly believe Danzation will be a blast,
we still must practice and practice okie!
lol
actions speak louder than words!
we cant jus achieve that simply by saying saying but not doing anything okay?

and hoh
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!
LOL
just a gentle reminder. lol.
actually the main purpose of this entry is to talk abt my BIRTHDAY. LOL.

YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!
IM FINALLY 18 YEARS OLD!
CAN GO CLUB OFFICIALLY LE!!!
LOL. =D

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 12:10 AM

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Saturday, October 25, 2008

Alicia Keys- Like You'll Never See Me Again

If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?

If I couldn't feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I'd be wishing you were here
To be everything that I'd be looking for
I don't wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you'll love me
Love me like you'll never see me again

Oh Oh Ohhhhh
How many really know what love is?
Millions never will
Do you know until you lose it
That it's everything that we are looking for

When I wake up in the morning
You're beside me
I'm so thankful that I found
Everything that I been looking forI don't wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So everytime you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again(can you do that for me baby)
Every time you touch me(see we don't really know)
Touch me like this is the last time(see everyday we never know)
Promise that you'll love me(I want you to promise me)
Love me like you'll never see me again(like you'll never see me again)

so true.

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 12:58 AM

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i. . . . . . . . . . . .

dunno wat am i doing.

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 12:50 AM

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Monday, October 20, 2008

hey ppl.
i got a little request

kindly please email me or sms me..
if u have the following solutions to my problems alrite ?
wld truly appreciate ur help. (".)

Problem 1:
-How do i solve the problem of DARK RINGS?

*I seriously dunno why i can look so tired every single day. please don tell me to zzz more, cos i cant. really. not that i don want to, but.. i just cannot. worst case scenario; my eye bags will suddenly become super obvious and dark when the night falls. i look like..... zombie.*

Problem 2:
-How can i cure my indigestion problem everytime i finish eating?

*each time after every meal i'll feel like, i cannot breathe properly. like eat too full le, then i cannot breathe normally. which is why, ppl if u notice, if i keep yawning during prac, means i got breathing problem again, cos by yawning, i can actually fill up my entire lungs with oxygen. i dunno why. if i dun do that, i'll be taking short, quick, rapid breaths. a worrying factor. damn.*

Problem 3:
-Now and then i do get chest pain, it stabs me thru my back and to the front. What shd i do?

*I recently got a nightmare that i cannot breathe and my heart stopped pumping. -_- super scary. cos i woke up feeling i cannot breathe again. >_< cos the feeling of my heart stopped pumpin in the dream was super real. i swear.

Now ppl,
pls dont sms/email me to ask me to take gd care of myself.
i hope to get solutions frm everyone who read this.
don just sms/email ask me go see doctor.
cos doctor also dunno
im a healthy person
did xray before and everything is fine.
so ..
ta-da~
dunno why lydat.

please don tell me i actually self created the "health problems" myself
cos i've heard of such cases
where the person is so stressed up
that in her mind,
she keeps thinking that she's sick, stress or unwell
end up it really drove her mad.

oh dear.
i hope im not anyway nearer to that.
so ppl
do a gd deed ya
lemme noe the answer.

time to..
....
......
.......

BYEBYE!!!!!! =")))))))

stay happy and positive peeps.
cos thats the only way things will work.

`PEACE`

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 12:26 AM

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Monday, September 08, 2008

seriously.
the inflation rate is making me pissed.
commodity prices are ever increasing..!

just yesterday,
i was out with Buddy, to Clementi Hawker Centre,
to buy lunch,
i head towards the Nasi Lemak $2 per packet stall,
ordered one packet of Nasi Lemak,
then the uncle who packed said $2.60,
cos i added veggies,
then he never put the peanuts and ikan bilis.
then i say,

Me: "Uncle, u nv put the peanuts!"
NiaoPok Uncle: "Oh, now the $2 packet never include peanuts."
(pointing to the board above him)
Me: (shouting out loud in my heart) "THEN PUT THE CONTAINER FULL OF PEANUTS THERE FOR WAT? DECORATIONS AH?"

true enuf,
the board hanging above him,
only includes chicken wing and egg.
and of cos.
white rice. -_-

wah kao,
nid to b so niaopok n stingy until peanuts don give mah?
YES!
i like eating peanuts.
tat's y i so affected.

not the first Nasi Lemak niaopok case leh,
last 2 weeks,
ate at Bugis Temporary Market,
with Yen and Min,
that particular Nasi Lemak stall also,
niaopok to max.
i ask yen help me put more peanuts.
the AUNTY saw that, still say yen,

Aunty: " ah, gou le. gou le. bu ke yi na tai duo.. (that's enough! you cannot take so much!"

-_-

wazzup with all nasi lemak stalls.
wazzup with the increasing of food prices.
-_-

alrite.
i jus wanna grumble
now tt danzation is cfm tis yr end dec,
ppl work hard k
.
.
.
.

okie,
im not feelin so gd now.
so not much conviction. lol
blame it on the nasi lemak with no peanuts.
then stil $2 !
i wont b surprised
if there's no chicken wings next time.
-_-

rice n egg n chilli.

WAHKAO.

~ v0nny a.K.a v|oLet ~ was alone 11:05 PM

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