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2009-05-04T01:51:00.001+08:00

at least they talk to you
be thankful.

-tired of it always repeating.

2009-04-13T00:51:00.003+08:00

went to watch
Singapore Best Dance Crew.
needless to say.
im super proud, touched, happy for every single group.
=)

thank you.
bcos,
watching you guys on stage today..
makes me wanna come back to dance more frequently
makes me so wanna improve on everything cos im super jealous n envy of the improvements
makes me want to compete and work hard and take part in competition again.
yes, i noe groove just ended nt long.
but it feels super long to me.

i miss dancing

and imptly i miss you all..

seeing you all improved...
i really v happy
and proud
and jealous too
hahahahah.
envy lah.. :):)
but really

thank you.

jiayou everybody.. don give up okie? esp nt when..
you noe it best
that you're happiest when you're dancing.
doing smthing that you love.
thou at times it gives you the stress
the pressure
the bad attitude.
end of the day,
that's what makes us happy.

to checkamatez;
im happy being with the group
thou nt always happy
cos im owiz late
and i hate being late if you knew me.
i hate being ALWAYS LATE FOR TRAININGS.
but im glad my team members are trying to be considerate.
thank you.
thou shimin always COMPLAINT. LOL.
i noe i din set a gd example as a senior,
cos im always LATE.
but if we meet on days when im nt working,
esp in the morning
I WILL BE ON TIME OKIE!
hahaha. okie, shall not justify or defend.
i know i didnt managed my time properly.
then again,
i enjoyed with this group
a fresh new group
really
funny yes, and we're so infamous for our "moqi"
hahahahaha
but, watching out video that day,
im srsly proud.. and happy..
cos first .. very first time we're neat. :)
and maintain the energy..
happy*

jiayou ok?
checkamatez isnt over. AH-HAH!
wait till and see. ~ =)

thx min for being the initiative one, I still cannot forget the "butt shake" LOLOLOLOLOL

thx ivan for being the.. quiet one. LOL. cos everyone grp needs a quiet person who only says the right thing at the right time.

thx cash for being the retard one. LOL. forever ................................... you don need me to explain. but u're still the zhui shuai qi de. :)

thx yen. PUI. LOL. for being the parrot.. owiz repeating n repeating n reminding us to ctrl and nt to overly full out..

yeah. imptly.
happy. =)
will be back for dancing.
improvements!

2009-01-01T23:41:00.002+08:00

sorry ppl..
i noe i promise to dedicate entries to you.
i swear to hollywood that i oredi typed out and saved it as draft..
supposed to hav it up..
then..
then..

SOOOBBBBZZZ

BOOO HOOOO HOOO....

I DUNNO WHY IS THE ENTRY GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DUNNO HW CAN IT HAPPEN
WHY IS THE ENTRY NOT HERE ANYMORE.....
=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

i cannot believe it.
i cannot cannot cannot
one min i saw it
then ..
then...
then...
the next few days..
i see and want to edit..
then no more!!!
no mroe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=((((((((((((((((

SORRY PPL.
gimme some time to type again..
i really super upset..
and sian
cos my entry..
really
super
ultimate
freaking
lone
i mean..
long...
and sincere...

THEN ALL GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kill me pls!! *bang the wall*
*blood oozing down...*

Sorry................
harnar
i promise, i'll do it k...
promise promise.. promise....

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2008-12-01T00:10:00.007+08:00

hey ppl.
i jus check my blog and realise..
my last entry was on 25th Oct. LOL.
SUPER ULTIMATE LONG.
lol

okie
tis post, is not a random post like orange xia lan ling who is also my BUDDY.
lol.
but tis is a meaningful post
why?
cos................
i've blog hop.. and realised everyone talkin abt danzation. LOL.
its really fine, i mean normal.. but hahahaha..
actually wat im saying is..
im also goin to talk abt smthing related to not only danzation, but to our dance.. :)

everyone is undergoing alot of stress;
everyone has their own problems, be it dance, personal, exams, work, r/s etc...
its definately not easy trying to tell urself not to let dance be affected by the external factors
i really understand
because each day, every single minute
i am also trying.
sometimes it work
most of the times it failed.
thus end result i would be so stressed up
till i did badly at work and dance.
till i have pimples outbreak. (hey, tis is really affecting me alot. =( super low morale each time i see the pimples)
till i cant slp at night much as i want to.

looking back,
have you stand back for a min and think
what could u have done to make things better?
practice more if unsure of steps?
prioritise dance and work accordingly?
instead of being so down, depress and letting ur emotions control ur mind, brain and body
why not use the extra time to practice, to study, to work or even to rest?
*this is the usual advice that CHIEN YEN always gives me when im at my lowest peak =) Of cos her ANG MOH isn't that good.. i helped to rephrase everything.. LOL. *

come on ppl,
NRA-ians !
this isnt the toughest part of our journey..
this is only the BEGINNING!!!!
if you let urself down now,
who else can pull u up?

jiayou ppl.
jiayou my dear steam girls
jiayou my non-steam ppl
most imptly,
jiayou everyone.
and jiayou to my dear idol - Ann Tan. =)

oh,
by the way,
although i strongly believe Danzation will be a blast,
we still must practice and practice okie!
lol
actions speak louder than words!
we cant jus achieve that simply by saying saying but not doing anything okay?

and hoh
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!
LOL
just a gentle reminder. lol.
actually the main purpose of this entry is to talk abt my BIRTHDAY. LOL.

YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!
IM FINALLY 18 YEARS OLD!
CAN GO CLUB OFFICIALLY LE!!!
LOL. =D

2008-10-25T00:58:00.002+08:00

Alicia Keys- Like You'll Never See Me Again

If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?

If I couldn't feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I'd be wishing you were here
To be everything that I'd be looking for
I don't wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you'll love me
Love me like you'll never see me again

Oh Oh Ohhhhh
How many really know what love is?
Millions never will
Do you know until you lose it
That it's everything that we are looking for

When I wake up in the morning
You're beside me
I'm so thankful that I found
Everything that I been looking forI don't wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So everytime you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again(can you do that for me baby)
Every time you touch me(see we don't really know)
Touch me like this is the last time(see everyday we never know)
Promise that you'll love me(I want you to promise me)
Love me like you'll never see me again(like you'll never see me again)

so true.

2008-10-25T00:50:00.003+08:00

i. . . . . . . . . . . .

dunno wat am i doing.

2008-10-20T00:26:00.003+08:00

hey ppl.
i got a little request

kindly please email me or sms me..
if u have the following solutions to my problems alrite ?
wld truly appreciate ur help. (".)

Problem 1:
-How do i solve the problem of DARK RINGS?

*I seriously dunno why i can look so tired every single day. please don tell me to zzz more, cos i cant. really. not that i don want to, but.. i just cannot. worst case scenario; my eye bags will suddenly become super obvious and dark when the night falls. i look like..... zombie.*

Problem 2:
-How can i cure my indigestion problem everytime i finish eating?

*each time after every meal i'll feel like, i cannot breathe properly. like eat too full le, then i cannot breathe normally. which is why, ppl if u notice, if i keep yawning during prac, means i got breathing problem again, cos by yawning, i can actually fill up my entire lungs with oxygen. i dunno why. if i dun do that, i'll be taking short, quick, rapid breaths. a worrying factor. damn.*

Problem 3:
-Now and then i do get chest pain, it stabs me thru my back and to the front. What shd i do?

*I recently got a nightmare that i cannot breathe and my heart stopped pumping. -_- super scary. cos i woke up feeling i cannot breathe again. >_< cos the feeling of my heart stopped pumpin in the dream was super real. i swear.

Now ppl,
pls dont sms/email me to ask me to take gd care of myself.
i hope to get solutions frm everyone who read this.
don just sms/email ask me go see doctor.
cos doctor also dunno
im a healthy person
did xray before and everything is fine.
so ..
ta-da~
dunno why lydat.

please don tell me i actually self created the "health problems" myself
cos i've heard of such cases
where the person is so stressed up
that in her mind,
she keeps thinking that she's sick, stress or unwell
end up it really drove her mad.

oh dear.
i hope im not anyway nearer to that.
so ppl
do a gd deed ya
lemme noe the answer.

time to..
....
......
.......

BYEBYE!!!!!! =")))))))

stay happy and positive peeps.
cos thats the only way things will work.

`PEACE`

2008-09-08T23:05:00.002+08:00

seriously.
the inflation rate is making me pissed.
commodity prices are ever increasing..!

just yesterday,
i was out with Buddy, to Clementi Hawker Centre,
to buy lunch,
i head towards the Nasi Lemak $2 per packet stall,
ordered one packet of Nasi Lemak,
then the uncle who packed said $2.60,
cos i added veggies,
then he never put the peanuts and ikan bilis.
then i say,

Me: "Uncle, u nv put the peanuts!"
NiaoPok Uncle: "Oh, now the $2 packet never include peanuts."
(pointing to the board above him)
Me: (shouting out loud in my heart) "THEN PUT THE CONTAINER FULL OF PEANUTS THERE FOR WAT? DECORATIONS AH?"

true enuf,
the board hanging above him,
only includes chicken wing and egg.
and of cos.
white rice. -_-

wah kao,
nid to b so niaopok n stingy until peanuts don give mah?
YES!
i like eating peanuts.
tat's y i so affected.

not the first Nasi Lemak niaopok case leh,
last 2 weeks,
ate at Bugis Temporary Market,
with Yen and Min,
that particular Nasi Lemak stall also,
niaopok to max.
i ask yen help me put more peanuts.
the AUNTY saw that, still say yen,

Aunty: " ah, gou le. gou le. bu ke yi na tai duo.. (that's enough! you cannot take so much!"

-_-

wazzup with all nasi lemak stalls.
wazzup with the increasing of food prices.
-_-

alrite.
i jus wanna grumble
now tt danzation is cfm tis yr end dec,
ppl work hard k
.
.
.
.

okie,
im not feelin so gd now.
so not much conviction. lol
blame it on the nasi lemak with no peanuts.
then stil $2 !
i wont b surprised
if there's no chicken wings next time.
-_-

rice n egg n chilli.

WAHKAO.

2008-08-05T23:45:00.002+08:00

he's da MANNNNNNNNNNNNNN

and

HE'S MINE. lol.

HE'S...

YOKOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-08T14:29:00.005+08:00

oh my dear

3 more days.

no, im not counting down

no, i don hate my job.

but..

IM SERIOUSLY EXCITED ABT NOT WORKING ANYMORE!!!!!

LOL

omg omg

i can slp late again

i can online till mornin

i can watch youtube/movies all day/night long

i can play mahjiong with jacky wu till wee hours

i can wake up at 4pm go pang sai then go back to slp till 9pm then go out chiong

LOL

kidding lah

but seriously,

can u imagine,

i don nid to worry abt not catching the bus to work any more =)

i can slp..

i can rest..

i can dance!!!!!!

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

YippEEEEEE !!!!!!

i don nid to face any more annoying, brainless, bad breath ppl anymore!!!!!!!

YAHOOOOOOoooooooooo!!!

lol.
but i really don hate my job.

i love it.

lol

im serious.
hahahahaha.. cos of my dear colleagues.

=))

they're such fun, crazy ppl.

i'm gonna b missing them. >_<

mwah. love u guys =)

but i'll stil go back for part time thou!!

yeah.

3 more days. =)

jiayou jiayou jiayou !!!!! =))

-thx for asking. really. =)

2008-07-05T11:03:00.002+08:00

Aching.
everywhere.
and i mean
everywhere.

physically.
emotionally.

hate the weird feeling. so pretentious.
=(

jiayou ah yew. =)

2008-07-03T23:54:00.003+08:00

hahahahahahah
hahahahahahah
hahahahahahahah

why is life owiz playing jokes on me?

damn funnyyy
really
im tearing

wat a funny day.
it has owiz been
all my life

woah.

i cant stop laughing
wow

when u see me
do ask me for my funny life stories

hahahahaha
hhahahahhah
hahahahaa
......................................
wat a joke.

2008-07-02T12:00:00.001+08:00

Insanity overwhelmed
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Horrible night.

2008-07-01T14:11:00.003+08:00

such a heart to heart session
makes me tear every time I think abt it.
cos im really glad that it happened. =)

thank you everyone =)
for sharing with all of us.
Thank you everyone =)
for attending the camp.
Thank you =)

Rem to share with everyone what u’ve learnt N gone thru during the camp.
Cos good things are meant to be shared among everyone. =)

im really scared..
Tell me wat to do…
cos I’m simply… too scared…
to be hurt n left alone again n again...

too much to take. i cant handle it anymore.

2008-06-19T17:29:00.004+08:00

A ngry
R estless
G rumpy
H urt

IM SO FREAKING PISSED
ANGRY
ANGRY
ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH
I HAVE TO SHOUT
I HAVE TO SCREAM
IM GONNA BE UNREASONABLE.
I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE.

ARGGGGGGHHHHHHH
FREAK
FREAKING
FREAKING
FREAKING FRUSTRATED.
but wat can i do?

THIS ISNT GOOD.
NO...
HATE IT
HATE IT
HATE IT

AARGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JUST.....
NVM.
FORGET IT..

2008-06-17T11:21:00.001+08:00

Im so proud of myself today
*pats on shoulder*

As usual, I woke up at 9am to prepare and get ready for work.
Then my right eye very tired, so I gei kiang,
Decided to lie on my couch and rest for a while.

“DING-DONG” went the grandfather clock in my living room.
I got a shock of my life.
It was bloody 930am !!!!!!!!!!!
My bus leaving at 945am!!!!!!!!!!
But I must leave my house by 940am!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHIT!
I rush to bathroom and showered.
Rush to my room n changed.
And rush to the bus stop.

Guess wat?
I got ready in 10mins.

*APPLAUSE*

10 freaking mins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lol.
Can u imagine.
A pretty gal like me can get ready in 10 mins???? LOL.
Really super amazing leh.
WOW.

Lol.
I super impressed by myself. I half walked, half ran to the bus stop.
End up I stil early, waiting for the bus.
LOL.

But alas,
I din put any moisturizer on my face,
I din slapped any body lotion on my sexy body.
I din put any serum on my gorgeous hair.
LOL.
But at least I stil wore clothes out.
Lol.

Im gonna give myself a treat today!
Lol.
For not wasting money by taking cab to work.
For being able to get rdy by 10mins!

WOAH.
Lol.
Amazing!!!!!!!!!!!

Plus today,
I received 2 calls early in e morning when I jus started work,
wishing me to have a nice day leh…
My mood today really super high.
Lol.
=)))))))))))))))))))

2008-06-17T01:52:00.002+08:00

slowly
falling

slowly
im falling...

how it sucks not being able to do a single freaking thing to stop the pain.

better stop right now.
don't. not right now. not again.
exams: main focus.

focus, von
focus..
you can do it. =)

so can you. only if you want it too. :)

*hugs*

P.S: Jiayou Da Mai ;)
say them in ur prayers every night. :)

Falling Out

2008-06-13T13:32:00.008+08:00

Been sitting thinking bout you and I
And wondering why were not getting along
So frustrated cause, what we had was a happy home
I don't know what the situation is, but I can tell in the way we kiss
We don't talk no more, it feels better when I’m alone


Sometimes I feel like there's no gettin through to you
Like you don't appreciate all that I do
you gotta show me that you want me to stay
Don't turn and walk away


Baby I’m slowly falling out of love with you
I don't know what to do
How did we end up here this way, what are we gonna do
I’m slowly falling out, baby we're tripping off silly things
Boy I need you to meet me half way, if you want me to be with you


I remember when, I be with my friends
You checked on me and made time to call
But how things have changed
Now I don't hear from you at all (yeah...yeah...yeah)


Sometimes I feel like there's no gettin through to you
Like you don't appreciate all that I do [All that i do]
you gotta show me that you want me to stay
Don't turn and walk away…


Baby I’m slowly falling out of love with you
I don't know what to do
How did we end up here this way, what are we gonna do
I’m slowly falling out, baby we're tripping off silly things
Boy I need you to meet me half way, if you want me to be with you


Don't let your pride get in the way
On something we worked so hard, don't throw it away
I’ve been trying to make you see,
Everything you need, is right here in me


Sometimes I feel like there's no gettin through to you
Like you don't appreciate all that I do
you gotta show me that you want me to stay
Don't turn and walk away…


Baby I’m slowly...
[Don't turn and walk away...] 
Baby I'm slowly falling out of love with you
I don't know what to do
How did we end up here this way, what are we gonna do
I’m slowly falling [I'm slowly...] out
Baby I'm tripping off silly things
Boy I need you to meet me half way, if you want me to be with you


I’m tired of giving my all
[Slowly fallin]2
How did we end here this way
I just want to know what are we gonna do
[Slowly fallin]3
How did we end up here this way? What are we gonna do
[Slowly fallin]2
How did we end up here this way?
What are you gonna do

- im falling in love with this song.

2008-06-10T15:31:00.003+08:00

finally.
the 2 performances are over.
studiowu recital and tbg.
=)))))))

overall,
it was really an enjoyable perf..
i see a potential leader rising. =)
out of the 30 ppl.
w/o him,
i doubt ppl would see of us as professional dancers.
and i doubt we would be so disciplined, so united,
so happy performing,
so family.
so loved.
=)))))
and i bet,
everyone noe who i'm talking abt.
=))))
thank you. to you.

watched TBG last sunday.
it nv failed to make me lau sai n constipate at the same time.
the dancers.
truly amazing.
Old Crew.
Kulture Break.
WCO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really.
i literally cheered n screamed until my voice lau hong.
lol
then i speak to everyone in high pitch voice.
lol.

but seriously
everyone is jus too impressive.
=DDDDDDDDDDDD

yokoi.
is so cute.
lol.
i really like his style. clean. sharp.

dominc.
he's even cuter.
he asked for my name
lol.
his control. brings me back to basics. damn important. impressive.

takae.
his crazy legs. moved damn fast. look so relax doing house. too li hai oredi.

shohei.
his "stop" action. woow. lol. impressed impressed.

bon.
seriously, when bon dance, reminds me of clement face. hahahah =)

UU.
his expression. locking. damn entertaining. love watching him perform.

sawadah.
choreo catches every single beat. he really too tian cai to be able to do it. *bows*

hanaii.
damn cute. his locking is so relax. and his locking with a little of whacking also! i like him =))

really.
really.
really.
really amazing how 8 such different dancers can blend in so well tgt in a grp.
yet they are still able to bring out their own character..
really amazing.
i tat night really cannot slp.
too hype up le.
lol.

ppl b patient k
pics of them coming up soon.
hahahahaha...

btw.
nra, we did it once again. =)
proud of NRA.
proud of u guys. TBG & Studiowu performers
proud of my ah beng Ah Chao
proud of Ah Ji
proud of Steffi
- thank you for so patiently teaching me apologize =)
proud of SK
-you will be alrite okie. i believe that u'll recover rapidly. i pray for ya. =)
proud of Mis-Ter
proud of Ken
proud of Fredy
n im sure ur purple hair will fade off to ugly gold. lol.

basically.
im proud of everyone.
Ronnie. Ore. Jaei. Da Mai.Bec.Mami.Fat Pig.Xiang Mei.Xiao Pang.Sophie.JJ.Allegra.
must i name everyone out????

LOL.
really lah.
if i cld.
i'll name every single person out.
but seriously,
i blog tis during work.
i really cannot lah.
lol.
i love u guys okie.
those names not mentioned
i love u more.
alrite?? =D
next time get a kiss from me okie?
hahahaha..

Last but not least.
thankful for Ann =)

i'm really truly proud to be part of NRA.

-loves =)

2008-06-04T11:05:00.002+08:00

Sometimes,

It really isn’t always funny being the joke of the day.

-prays

Self-pity is our worst enemy and if we yield to it,
we can never do anything good in the world.
- Helen Keller

2008-06-03T16:24:00.003+08:00

Something I wanna share with you guys.
Each time I drink pearl milk tea
I’ll have stomachache and feel like vomiting.
After I empty my bowels,
I immediately vomit.
-_-

The pearl milk tea was extremely tasty when I drank it
But when it came out from my mouth again,
EEeeeeeeYeeeeeeeeeeWWWWW
Damn disgusting can!!!!!

Tat time when I vomited in the toilet at 73,
A black black thing came out from my mouth,
I look closely at it,
Then realize
“omg, it’s the pearl”
Not wanting to waste my money,
I decided to eat it again.

.
.
.
.
.

YUUUCCCKSSSSSSSSS!!!
LOL

Of cos I didn’t put tat pearl inside my mouth lah!
Lol.
I threw it inside the toilet bowl and flushed it back to Bugis Sweet Talk. Lol

Lau,
But seriously
What is happening.
Today lunch I bought pearl milk tea from LP.
Happily drank it and eat my crab nuggets from Old Chang Kee.
Went back to office n sat down for less than 10 mins,
I immediately rush to the toilet.
-_-

Jigu.
My money lydat wasted. 3 bucks leh!
Apparently, tis time round, no pearls came out,
But my vomit was damn fast.
Lol.
As in, the.. erm.. the vomit came out pretty fast.
Last time slow n steady, this time, WOAH.
Like u turn on a tap to its fullest, tat kinda fast u noe?
I got a shock.
Cos the vomit almost splash onto my pants.
LOL.

Okie guys,
Please show more concern towards me alrite?
Althou I’m attached now to my ah beng (Ah Chao),
We’re breaking up this very Sunday after the performance. LOL.
And he doesn’t really care much about me.
Rem how he luff at me when I hit my butt?
tat evil pig. LOL.

Arghhhh
Jiayou bah ppl,
Be it TBG or StudioWu alrite? =))))))
We will all do well.. cos I nv stop praying =))))

Meanwhile,
Study hard ppl!!! =D

when one door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often we took so long at the closed door that
we do not see the one which has been opened for us.
- helen keller =)

2008-05-30T01:25:00.004+08:00

=)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

hehehehehehehehe

hahahahahahahahah

lolololololololololololol

alrite.
this is a random post
obvious im happy rite
lol
lalalalala lalalalala lalalalala lalalalalala
dodododododododo

ahhhhAHHHHHAHAHHAHAHAHHHHHHH

OMG! WHERE IS MY SINGING KAKIS!!!!

ALEX! FAT PIG! SHOUTKI!
LOL

i miss singing tis song with u guys.
lol.

hey ppl!
now tat RP perf is over.
we now hav to chiong hard
for TBG & Studio Wu alrite???? =)))))

this is it leh!
we must believe we will be able to do it once again!
believe =)
with the correct mindset/ attitude/ heart
nothing is impossible

--------------------------------

think above the line =)))
let's all jiayou okie??

but first.....................................!

pls study hard for ur upcoming common tests ppl.
imagine..
u don study, kip comin for dance
then u no confidence take paper.
then affect ur dance
then cannot rem steps
then cannot rem formation
cos kip thinkin abt the tests
then affect everybody
then everyone low morale
then upset.
then performance not our best.
all bcos u nv study for tests
LOL

so~~~~~
pls manage ur time wisely..
rem to study k
study tired le
then dance
=)
then go study
then dance
then study
study study
lol

wahwahwhawha
im like everyone's pretty, sexy fairy godmother
okok
rem to study k!
esp u
ivan.
LOL.

i random la.
and u!
pink seng!

and u!
MIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa

harnar.
everyone lah
money.
kitkat
kok.s
baowen
alex
everyone really.

shit
im gonna repeat again.
lol

study ya!

=))

lets all do it!
yeaHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

~ believe then see or see then believe~

2008-05-20T18:05:00.001+08:00

Beautiful.Loved.Blessed

-stupid trip pissed me off-
-stupid ppl turns me off-

2008-04-25T10:46:00.003+08:00

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后
生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音我的有口无心
我离不开Darling
更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密

rem?
cos i nv forget...

im just as upset as u're upset.. =(

2008-04-21T19:22:00.003+08:00

Fantasia is over.
Getting aimless ppl?
Lol.

Relax,
This is one of the usual post-symptoms when a production ends.
Soon,
We’ll b back rehearsing in the studio.
Then soon ppl will be complaining v tiring. LOL.

Read many ppl’s blogs
All of them thanking one another.
Lol.

Okie lah.
I shall also thank all the choreographers- xian mama, yen papa, bec ah jie 1, JJ ah jie 3, fredy ah bei, wq ah ji.

for ur..
ermz..
choreo.
LOL.
I …
aye…
Learnt alot…
Really…
Yeah…
Lol

I’m really sincere okay!
I really thanking you all..
For..
Erm
Ur choreo
LOL.

Love u all lah.
U all noe I love u rite
Words don’t say much
My actions say a lot oredi.
Lol.

*ai ni mennnnnnnnnnnnnn =))) *

To Ann tan,
Thank you for the lovely present to all of us =))
But u still v aunty.
And im still da prettiest.
Lol. love u *mwah*

To my Wei Wu Du Zun ppl & Choy,
proud of you guys. really. very. extremely =)
those who forget steps or din full out during actual perf,
GIMME BACK MY SNICKERS! OR PAY ME BACK MY MONEY!!!
lol.
harnar....
kip la, kip la... im not so niao de..
hope you guys learnt smthing and will rem what u've actually learnt/experience
=)
if not for the little actions that you guys nv realise you all did,
i wld hav given up
but i didnt'
thank you. =)
to everyone of you... =)))
*hugs*

Anyway, just a gentle reminder,
PLEASE SEND ME ALL MY PICS!
Lol
Yeah, please send me k????
I v poor
I got no camera
Thou my phone is a 5.0 mega pixel camera phone,
I didn’t take out to take pics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL
So ppl,
PLEASE SEND ME MY BEAUTIFUL PICS!!! *ROARSSSSSSSSSS*
LOL

Eh,
Tell u all smthing.
I just had the weirdest dream ever.
I was so tired today at work that I kip fallin aslp.
Then when it was finally my lunch time,
I fell aslp immediately at my desk

Zzzzzzzzzzzz
Zzzzzzzz
Zzzzzzzzzzzz
Zzzzzzzzzz
Ah hr past. . . .

Then I woke up
Or so, I tot I woke up
I was awake then I check the time, it’s 4.40pm.
I slept more than an hr, then realize outside our office area there’s a lot of ppl, den my colleagues were all as per normal working and doing their stuff..
Everything was as per operation, then I felt very tired and closed my eyes and zz again.
Then I really woke up, time is 4.01pm
And my whole arms went numb.

-_-
I only managed to wake up when I went back to zzzz in my dream.
Cos I noe I did try to wake up but I cldn’t.

Harnar,
Tis isn’t a scary dream lah!
But but… I really felt … weird when I really woke up.. lol.. cos.. aiyah!~
Dunno how to explain lah.
LOL

*pissed*

Lol.
Angry with myself.
Lol. Harnar.

Last gentle reminder *sweet smiles*
SEND ME ALL MY PICS~!

Lol.
Lub u guys.
Mwah. =)

2008-04-17T02:18:00.002+08:00

ppl,

JIA YOU !

this is it.
i believe and i know we will b able to pull it off!

don stress urself out
jia you.
let's work out bodies off! =D

for tml and the day after tml!!!!!

then then then..
we can REST!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL

okie,
lets nt get distracted. lol

tml we will put up a great/fantastic show!
no more screw ups alrite?

*hugs*

everyone don cry k.
if u wanna cry
pls don lemme see k
cos i will auto join u all cry tgt... >_<
i cannot ta-han de lah...

love u guys
love u all
u all love me too k ?
:)

JIAYOU =)

2008-04-15T11:05:00.003+08:00

1 more day to Fantazia..
jia you ppl !!!!!!!!

to Wei Wu Du Zun ppl:

please don stress yourself out
rem,
dance is about performing, enjoying urself on stage.
rem to smile =)

like i've said b4,
i wldn't wanna scold u all for forgetting steps/formation etc.
there isn't a need to...
cos all of u are already young adults,
and i also same age as u all.. *blinks*

and i believe,
u urself wldn't wanna screw up on stage either rite?
i mean,
ur frens/family members are there to watch ur performance...
definately u wanna do ur best, make them proud of you =)

Jiayou ppl.
I know this is only a backing item,
but if u can't perform ur best for a backing item,
how can u ensure others that u will do ur best for showcase items?

So, with only 1 last day of prac,
work hard, help each other out.
Don selfish stand there and do nth. lol.
it's all about team work okie!!!!

DaJia !
Let's not let Ann down.
Let's not let Choy down.
Most imptly,

Don't let urself down. =)

-i'm stil left with nothing
even if you gave me the world.

Hate That I Love You

2008-04-08T16:00:00.002+08:00

Guess how much I love you,
Guess how much I need you,
And I can't stand you,
Must everything you do make me wanna smile,
Can I not like you for a while,

Cos you won't let me,
You upset me girl,
N then you kiss my lips,
All of a sudden I forget,
That I was upset,
Can't remember what you did,

But I hate it

You know exactly what to do,
So that I can't stay mad at you,
For too long,
that's wrong

But I hate it

You know exactly how to touch,
So that I don't wanna fuss n fight no more,
Said I despise that I adore you,

And that I hate how much I love you boy,
I can't stand how much I need you, (I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy,
But I just can't let you go,
And I hate that I love you so

- love this song

2008-04-04T18:01:00.001+08:00

"Nothing in life is to be feared; it is only to be understood."

from a very brave man
Nick Vujicic

-still can't accept it =(

2008-04-02T12:04:00.002+08:00

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie

And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives

I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

-who am i to judge?-

-simply love this song-

2008-03-26T14:58:00.002+08:00

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

we passed!!!
we passed!!!
we passed!!!
we passed!!!
we passed!!!
we passed!!!
we passed!!!
we passed!!!
we passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL

We're not very excited. really.
i mean,
we noe we'll pass
after all.
we studied.
we buried our heads in our pillows.
and studied hard.

lol

the paper...
chicken feet.

LOL.

we passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally got more motivation to take the next 2 papers.
lol.

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol.

really heng i got pray.
lol.
thank my lucky stars.
thank my lucky nose stud.
thank my lucky red G-String.
thank my lucky Von. Spears ring.

lol.

last of all,
i thank my brains.

xing ku le !!! =DDDDD

-may the crisis be over. n nv come back again-

2008-03-18T17:29:00.002+08:00

im sorry =(

-pls tell me what i can do to ease your pain... =(

2008-03-13T11:07:00.003+08:00

i have a home

where i don't belong.

it certainly doesn't feel like home to me.

*please stop asking me to leave. . .*

2008-03-10T19:33:00.000+08:00

today is gonna be a better day than yesterday. =)

-or so i hope.

2008-02-12T10:27:00.000+08:00

i'll be closing down this blog soon

why?

cos there's too many stupid ppl out there

who don't understand a single word that i'm blogging

-well i'm in fact the stupid one. hahahahahahaha

2008-02-02T13:11:00.000+08:00

nowadays

there are so many stupid ppl

lol.

qi si wo.

2008-01-29T10:26:00.000+08:00

i need a friend

badly.

tired.
but tears just won't stop streaming.

2008-01-26T11:34:00.000+08:00

Introducing:

Fbeatx! =)

jiayou bah Fbeatx!
we've been slacking for so long.
i mean,
practising for so long.
lol.
we must make it work k?
*JEAH*

yen pls don shout during the monoco part k? its meant to be dead.
wq pls don xiang hong den jump out during the monoco part.
delin pls don xiang hong den qiang pai so much during the nicole part.
peiyi pls don so excited abt funka till you legs jelly during britney part.
allegra pls don high til you no balance during nicole part.
mae pls don tired till ur head & leg can do e same side during nicole part.

LOL

harnar,
i rem my last part lah
my head don come out during the krumping part
arms must go all the way down rite.
lol
i will rem one! lol

jiayou jiayou.
everybody must jiayou
mayb except
buddy's purple grp
mayb except
ter's blackie grp
mayb except
freddy's greyhound grp
mayb except
vic's skinny jeans grp

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

alrite
lol
everyone
ya
jiayou lah
fan si le
lol.

my intuitions are telling me smthing.
i don feel good about it. =(

2008-01-24T10:31:00.000+08:00

my stupidity make me weak.

perhaps you din realise it
but i am really hurt

i finally realise
words are just words
they can only assure this much.

i cant pretend anymore. . .

2008-01-23T18:51:00.000+08:00

i jus wanna be simple.
i jus want a simple life
that's all i really wish for....

is it really so hard??

yes..
im not practical
yes..
im not being realistic again.

oh shuddup~

2008-01-23T18:32:00.000+08:00

i don't have much say,
have i?

never mind
was nv impt anyway.

hate it when eveything is repeating again.

im sad, hear me, anyone?

*shrugs*

forget it~

2008-01-02T16:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAR 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its gonna be an extremely good year for me... !

for everybody...

thou it started off quite badly..
imagine stuck outside xin's back gate...

LOL

anyway...

im gonna post a mega post on my solo pictures.

LOL

i mean

obviously

i'll include some extras inside the photos too...

lol..

so please wait ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

qi dai bah !!!!!!! =D

-off to work

2007-12-12T01:31:00.000+08:00

i LOVE

Patrick Chen
Lee Daniel
Gigi Torres

their workshop was amazing... !!!

there is no 1 word that i can describe with.... !!!

OMG....

AMAZING TALENTED

LOL

pics will be up super soon k !! :D

Meanwhile,

Let's welcome back Rough Aunties!!!!

:DDDDD

im so proud of them!!!!

they really really really...

im really really really happy!!! and proud of them!!!

=DDDDD

not to forget...

my presents are along the way!! LOL...

but im really seriously v proud of u all.. =))))

and ah bao too!! ur grp is already saved under my favourites. LOL.

welcome back!

let's catch up soon k!! will see u and treat u eat bao.. lol

k, shall be posting lotsa pics up next entry..

meanwhile,

those ppl who took lotsa beautiful pictures of me during my bday...

please stand out!

and send me my pics!

can u imagine i dun hav a single pic of me during my bday celebration? -_-

send me k! :D

till then~

Love...

Patrick, Gigi, Lee Daniel... =DDD

really really enjoyed all the classes... Thank you =DDD

2007-11-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

think.

think again.

-What do you want in life?-

-Are you happy?

-No? Why not?

-How to make yourself happy?

-Find yourself, and work towards it.

-Have no regrets =)

Somehow, some way, things will fall in place.
Cos they always do.

*just what am i doing. . .tell me. . *

2007-11-02T12:44:00.000+08:00

Disappointed

Being misunderstand once is already affecting me a lot.

Being misunderstand by everyone umpteen times is killing me.

That’s all I have to say.

-You dont know how much hell I’m going thru right now-
-i have a home; but i can't return-

2007-10-27T12:44:00.000+08:00

SOON SOON!

*waves*

only those who have DS lite
and are playing SIMs
will understand the true meaning of my post.

for those who dun have

TOO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL

go get ur own!
no way im lending u!
LOL
*sniggers*

-off to play my DS lite- woooooooo

2007-10-23T10:27:00.000+08:00

listen
.
.
.
.
.

listen
.
.
.
.

listen
.
.
.
.
.
.
if im willing to speak
will ears be turned deaf upon me?

stupid fool
why does it owiz seem so dark?

-find yourself-
im trying

2007-10-12T16:06:00.000+08:00

Take off my shirt. Loosen the buttons
and undo my skirt, Stare at myself in the mirror
Take me apart peace by peace,
Sorrow decrease
Pressure release, I put in work
Did more than called upon, More than deserved
When it was over, Did I wind up hurt (Yes)
But it taught me before a decision ask this question first

Who am I living for?
Is this my limit, Can I endure somemore
Chances are given, Question Existing
Who am I living for?
Is this my limit, Can I endure somemore
Chances are given, Question Existing

Take off my cool, show them that
under here, I'm just like you
Do the mistakes, I may make me a fool
Or a human with loss, and if that I'm loss
Round of applause, Take the abuse
Sometimes it feels like they want me to lose
It's entertainment is that an excuse? (No)
But the question that lingers whether win or lose

Who am I living for?
Is this my limit, Can I endure somemore
Chances are given, Question Existing
Who am I living for?
Is this my limit, Can I endure somemore
Chances are given, Question Existing

Dear Diary,
And to all them
Entertaining is something I do for a living
It's not who I am, I'd like to think that I'm pretty normal,
I laugh, I get mad, I hurt, I think
I suck sometimes,
But when you're in the spotlight,
Everything seems good,
Sometimes I feel like i have it worse cause I have to always keep my guard up,
I don't know who to trust,
I don't know who wants to date me for who I am,
Or who wants to be my friend for who I really am,

Who am I living for?
Is this my limit, Can I endure somemore
Chances are given, Question Existing
Who am I living for?
Is this my limit, Can I endure somemore
Chances are given, Question Existing

-loving it every min-

2007-10-10T13:23:00.000+08:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other.
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

*love this song*

-i'm inconsolable-

2007-10-09T14:24:00.000+08:00

sick.

so sick..

im really sick.

im not singing the song

but im sick

=((((((((((

gotta rest more.

i cant b sick.
not this time.
not now.
argh

*sniffs*

*why is it owiz our fault? so ridiculous. unfair. =(*

2007-10-05T15:44:00.000+08:00

boy
i shd be a fortune-teller.

my intuitions were right from the very start.
clever oh me.
clever oh so.

2007-10-04T15:44:00.000+08:00

"learn to take things with a little pinch of salt"

i've been hearing this quote since dunno god knows when from dunno hw many ppl.
i jus cant get it outta my head.
its eating up my brain!
i can feel my brain cells getting lesser and lesser,
day by day
with that quote in mind
my brain cells are becoming saltier and saltier.

*awkward silence*

LOL
yes,
its nt funny
damnit
i lost my sense of funniness ever since i've become so serious about my life
LOL

pls,
if u are my fren still
tell me the truth
am i no longer funny?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooooo

i'm related to the most funny person on earth,
erm.
the who ah.
the one who acted in the MASK.
Jim Carey!
yes!
i'm half related to him!
no kid!
we even resemble each other!
i mean,
of cos i'm prettier lah.
that's smthing i nid not say.

yes ppl.
listen, read n think about my quote.
cos it's gonna help you go a long long wayyyyyy....... =)

*i do know what i'm doing. yes. i do know where i wanna head to. no. i'm not aimless. jiayou*

2007-10-01T15:36:00.000+08:00

boy,
im scared of you.

no more red wine for me.>_<

it still hurts everytime you say that.
i shd really stop dreaming
-stabbed-

2007-09-23T12:49:00.000+08:00

i miss the old times
i miss the times when all of us still hang out together as a group
i miss the times when Y.O Buddy is literally crazy over White Rhythm
i miss the times watching J.A.D.E Crew practising in our studio
i miss walking back home with C.O.G.Y
i miss dinner with everyone at Mac after Ann's clz
i miss Fries Babes
i miss the adventures
i miss the clubbing sessions
i miss the times when all of us get together and study hard in the studio
i miss the ktv-ing sessions
i miss the exchanging of our timetables and meeting up with NRA peeps during lunch breaks
i miss everybody
i miss all the things we've done in the past
i miss the laughters, cries, rantings that we've had

but it seems to be,
knowingly
that everyone has already moved on with their lives/partners/work committments

its a fact that i've learnt to accept

people whom we tot were close friends before

make no effort to stay in touch anymore
perhaps they pressume that he/she is busy too
perhaps they got no time
perhaps its due to external factors
perhaps they prefer ppl to take initiative first
perhaps they just din bother anymore

saddening isnt it ?
but i wont dwell on the past
cos i know it is already over, ended, full stop.
no point mentioning it anymore
its abt time for me to move on too.
i must say,
those were the best times i've had in NRA
memories that can never be erased from me.

to you guys out there,
thank you for lighting up my life with everything that every single one of you has done
thank you for the guidance and advises.
i wish for everyone,
all the best in your future endeavours.
take care and good bye.

2007-09-21T10:38:00.000+08:00

i dedicate this post to me.

britney aka von spears.

i believe in u !

don care wat others say about u

you are forever da best

you are forever my idol

=)

welcome back Britney aka Von Spears ! =)

2007-09-19T10:11:00.000+08:00

i just cant understand how she feels.

everything just keeps on repeating

must you owiz raise your voice at me?

boy i'm back to square one again.

it hurts like hell

2007-09-18T15:57:00.000+08:00

happy

=D

2007-09-17T10:29:00.000+08:00

i wonder why is it so hard. . . .

*spaced out*

2007-09-15T12:33:00.000+08:00

i flew again

in my dream
why am i owiz flying

tis time round
its nt about ghosts

HENG AH!

lol
but this time round
the flying was so vivid
i felt it
the wind blowing my sexy hair
i'm flying
flying to everywhere
flying to the sky
flying with the clouds
flying
flying
flying
until i met jiaojiao
in case u ass dunno who is jiaojiao
jiaojiao is a taiwan famous artiste
i dunno how on earth did he appear by my side
but dreams don owiz make sense rite?
anyway
all i can rem was
he was v depressed
he said to me
"i'm good for nothing."
then i said,
"no ah, u're a v famous zu ci ren ah!"

LOL
end of my pointless dream

i wonder
if i continue flying in my dream
would i really be able fly one fine day?
if so,
i'll b clapping and jumping around in joy
cos i'll b able to fly to Australia tgt with R.A for FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!

scully they dun lemme bunk in with them.
-_-

chicken
so selfish
LOL
i dun care
i si si tag along
LOL

anyway
now that suntec is over
those who has pictures of my gorgeous face
please send to my email account
LOL
don so selfish keep to urself and admire me at home k ?
must learn to share =))))

i really wish i can fly. so i can fly away n nv come back.

2007-09-13T12:58:00.000+08:00

scary
ultimate scary dream i had

inside the dream
i was a ghost
or i tot i was a ghost
or i wasn't a ghost
i dunno
but it seems like
ppl were tryin to catch me
they're all chasing me
but im a ghost
so they cant see me
neither can they touch me
i can fly
i literally float around in the air
but there's this ghost that they hired
that can see me, can touch me
she chases me around
she caught me
i know i'm about to die
thou ghosts normally dont die again
still i got this bad feeling i'm dead
i knoe i must escape
i waited
i followed the "ghost" instructions.
then suddenly!
i ran
i mean,
i flew
i flew with all my effort to run away
damn.
flying is damn tedious.
i manage to fly away frm that "ghost"
then i flew towards this guard who holds a whole bunch of gold keys to the gold huge truck
i grab the keys and flew as fast as i could to the truck
the ghost was hot on my heels.
i could sense that they're nearing up
i flew up to the door of the truck
stuck the key in and turned the door open
then i drove the truck away
suddenly
as i drove the truck away
yen was beside me.
i dunno hw the hell did she got inside
mayb cos she scared that i'm driving w/o a license
lol
but yes, she appeared beside me.
then i drove the truck
it can even travel on mrt tracks.
cos i know i went up on da tracks.
theni woke up

this is not the scariest part

i was woken up from my dream by knocking sounds on our main door
or i tot, it was our door
i heard mumbling sounds as well
damn near my ears
the knocking carried off for damn long
damn noisy
keep on knocking and knocking
so in the end i woke up
i stood on my sis's bed
tried to look outside of the window to see who's knocking
i cant see anyone
then i left my room
i asked my mum
"why didn't you open the door? the knocking very loud leh.."
she looked at me,
and said,
"what knocking? you dreaming ah? no one's knocking our door ah..."

..............................
..............................
...........................
..................
.................
..........

i went back to bed.
then when i woke up again to prepare for work,
i asked my mum again,
"Isn't there anyone knockin on our door this morning? how about our neighbours?"
she replied,
"bo lah."

-_-

*sweats*

i swear
i heard mumbling noises
and knocking sounds
damn clear
i wasn't dreaming at all
its like
ppl tryin to get in but it was locked.
can u imagine what will happen
if i go open the door?

OOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

i don dare to imagine.

freaky shit.

2007-09-11T16:05:00.000+08:00

time for me to rest
and recover. . .

slowly.slowly.slowly.slowly

2007-09-07T10:27:00.000+08:00

so disappointed.
esp you.
=(

everyone is just putting up a fake front only.
it scares me

who's real?
who's not?
i really cant tell anymore.

down.down.down.down.down
all the way down.

*i can only trust you =)*

2007-09-05T08:39:00.000+08:00

i've nv lost faith in us.
its our final chance
final show time
love you gals
have more confidence
=)

im here for you.
just tell me anything
alrite?

cos i do noe hw painful numb actually feels.
trust me

*i feel less sad. but i feel more lonely*
how v true. . .

2007-08-29T13:27:00.000+08:00

The pain
it can't be described.
devastated

1? 2? 3? 10 times?
boy, im amazed with myself.

i'll stand strong
i'll really try
help me pls.

2007-08-23T10:50:00.000+08:00

Gotta concentrate.
concentrate.
concentrate.
concentrate.
concentrate.
concentrate.

running outta time

no time

no time

no time

no time

no time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHIT.

no feelings
no trust
no faith
no pain
no disappointments
no nothing

2007-08-21T11:33:00.000+08:00

numb.

gotta focus on dance.

jiayou fbeatx. =)

thank you. :)

2007-08-20T15:21:00.001+08:00

it really hurts

yes, im disappointed.
but i don blame ya.

in pain.

2007-08-06T15:29:00.000+08:00

i saw the msg.

thank you. =)

you made me teared again.
for a good reason this time. =)

2007-08-04T12:03:00.000+08:00

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

i'm glad i found my soulmaid. =)

2007-08-03T10:43:00.000+08:00

suddenly thought of this song. . . .

brings back my sec 3 camp memories. . .

When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see

No I won't be afraid
Oh I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand,
stand by me

So darlin' darlin'
stand by me
Oh stand by me
Oh stand, stand by me, stand by me

If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Or the mountain should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry
No I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin' darlin' stand by me
Oh stand by me
Whoa stand now, stand by me, stand by me
Darlin' darlin' stand by me
Oh stand by me
Oh stand now, stand by me, stand by me

Whenever you're in trouble
just stand by me
Oh stand by me
Whoa stand now, oh stand, stand by me

will you stand by me forever? just a passing thought...

2007-08-02T12:54:00.000+08:00

unfolding a sad story
no one is to be blamed
no one
but you

You make it all happened
you let your heart take control
thousands and thousands of times
now look wat had happened.

all these years
could you ever forgive yourself?
you can go on hiding
you can go on pretending
yes you can
pretend that you're an angel
But deep down,
you know you're someone despicable,
just like them.

Pretendious
you can jolly well keep pretending
and play happy family all by yourself
Cos
someday,
the truth will be out.
and you can no longer hide.
and you will be alone.
All alone.

Pray hard then.

sorry to let you see it.
It wasn't supposed to end that way. =(

2007-07-31T15:09:00.001+08:00

除了想你除了爱你
hu ~ 我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记整理心情
hu ~ 我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你

2007-07-31T10:19:00.001+08:00

the reason is simple:

im fed up with myself.

2007-07-30T15:49:00.000+08:00

my soul has disappeared
im so ashamed.
please don question me.

shattered dreams of light

broken into pieces.

i cant even save myself now

2007-07-07T12:29:00.000+08:00

this feeling is . . .

unexplainable. . . .

but . . . .

i guess. . . .

i just cant explain either. . . . .

*am i ? or am i not ?*

2007-07-06T16:06:00.000+08:00

hello.

hello.

ello.

ella
ella
ella

under my umbrella
under my umbrella.

ella ella
hebe
selina!

LOL

harnar. its nt funny
anyway
i dun hav time to blog a proper one.

my lunch break is over
damn.

LOL

bye pepps.
i'll talk to u all soon
and i mean
real soon.

bye peeps

bye bye bye

n'sync
byebyebye!

*shivers*

*i pray
*i pray
*and i pray =)*

2007-06-29T11:21:00.000+08:00

Oh,
Why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now

Don't
be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me you love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you

When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when
When the night falls on you baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you

*have faith in me =)*

2007-06-23T13:31:00.000+08:00

I’m really glad.
only you will und.

yes.
U

ah ma yi.

see u at Funzzx Dating Club.
LOL

=)

2007-06-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

Buffet Butter Time! Enjoy =)

*life's better being simple*

2007-06-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

Devastation
has
just
begun.

2007-06-12T13:40:00.000+08:00

no,

it doesnt matter to me.

2007-06-06T17:18:00.000+08:00

I give up.

Bad Habits

2007-05-24T15:42:00.000+08:00

i dun bathe when im lazy. i simply jus sprinkle some powder and lie on my bed.
i don owiz wash my hair.
i love to dig my nose.
i don wash my hands after going toilet.
i like to play farting competition.
i like to burp loudly inside ppl's ears.
I hate to shave.
i despise ppl whom are smelly.
i make my own rules.
im a selfish bitch.
i love to bully kids.
im easily jealous.
and i love to blog rubbish.

im sorry for hurting you.
im sorry for hurting you.
im sorry for hurting you.

2007-05-20T03:23:00.000+08:00

will it come true ?

ridiculously happy and blissed yet confused i felt in it.

mayb it shdn't at all...

mayb it nv will. . .

stop dreaming*

2007-05-18T10:22:00.000+08:00

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
So this is goodbye

2007-05-12T12:25:00.000+08:00

Planning for happiness is rarely successful.
Happiness just happens.

-Robert Half

2007-05-10T18:32:00.000+08:00

hey
lets play a game
the game we're gonna play is called" Grant my wishes"

alrite,
here's how you go about playing
firstly,
i'll tell you my wishes,
it'll jus be 3 wishes,
nth more, nth less.

next,
you'll jus grant my wishes for me !

isnt e game simple?
well here goes !

First wish:
To ensure history will never repeat itself.

easy rite?

Second wish:
To make my frens and family members the happiest ppl living on earth.

Third (last) wish:
To take my life away.

simple rite?
now,
i'll appreciate that you guys out there start working on my wishes!

i'll be so ever grateful.
thank you! =)

my heart needs protection
to shield from rejection

2007-05-06T18:46:00.000+08:00

Sweet words are easy to say,
Sweet things are easy 2 buy,
But sweet people are difficult to find.
Life ends when U stop dreaming,
Hope ends when U stop believing,
Love ends when U stop caring,
Friendship ends when U stop sharing.

how very true is that.
probably that marks the end of our friendship.
good bye.

2007-04-30T01:47:00.000+08:00

GOD

im
.
so
.
bloody
.
messed
.
up

what a scary dream =(

2007-04-26T17:59:00.000+08:00

the light of life is slowly diminishing. . .

2007-04-26T00:24:00.000+08:00

before i start
pls read this book

"Veronika Decides to Die by Paulo Coelho"

i finished it within a day.
big deal ?
yeah.. nth to b proud of..
but i read the book twice.
cos it got me pondering.

why
why is there so many things formed in my mind yet i cant bring them out with my voice?
why is there a need to live, to work, to sleep and to eat?
what does tat make of us ?
what will it eventually turn out to be ?

we work for a living,
to pay for the expenses,
to survive,
give gratitude to parents for bringin us up,
for our own expenditure,
entertainment,
impressing frens,
build r/s. . .

why are we even doin all these?

so what if i study well and get myself a degree?
so what if i work hard and get a good pay?
so what if im happily married with a perfect husband, 2 beautiful kids and a dog?
so what if im rich?

we all know that, we will all die at any point in time,

why do we stil keep doing the same damn thing over and over again w/o knowing why...

so as,
not to be despised?
not to be excluded from everything?

so as,
to be popular?
to be normal lyk everyone?

i dun wanna be lyk them.
i dun wanna be a robot,
wake up in the morning,
get rdy for work,
lunch brk for 1hr,
knock off at the usual time,
go home,
sleep.
or,
forever watchin movies,
or,
go dance,
then eat and back to home.
when dawn breaks,
back to work again.

routined.
its too damn routined

i dun wanna worry abt not fitting in
i dun wanna do things that i dun even feel lyk doing
i jus dun care.
i wanna be mad too
i wanna have the courage to go up to those i dislike and kick them in their faces
i want to help put things right
i dun wanna be a coward
i dun wanna hide
i need peace
i wanna find my inner soul

i need to find my soul
i need a reason

to live as well

yes, im inspired by the book.
and no,
im nt going to die.

at least,nt yet.
i've nt yet fulfilled anything.

"the happier people can be ; the unhappier they are."

-------------------------------------------------
if one day
you know you're gonna die in a week's time
what would ur reaction be?
what would you do ?

me ?
i would go on a wild shoppin spree
buy diamonds for my girlfriends, sis and mom
treat my frens to superb food and wine
catchin breath-taking sunrise and sunset sceneries
dance my heart away at the most happening club
get so wasted that i cant even rem wat happen the next day
to go on a holiday even if its gonna be a super short one
give my love to the one and only man in my life,
tell my frens and family how much i love them thou i do make the stupidest mistakes in life tat upset them
apologize to everyone for the things i've done and not done.

thats wat one normally would think of, isn't it ?
but when such news befall on you in real life,
would you be doing all this?

no,
instead
one would be so absorbed in his own world,
pitying himself
hating everyone
not caring about a shit that's happeninga
nd wanting to leave the world even sooner

so tell me,
which is which ?

will one only truly understand the meaning of life
until having experienced the kiss of death itself?

-maybe i should. . .

2007-04-18T14:02:00.000+08:00

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

*i guess. . .
nth's for sure. . . *

2007-04-16T16:29:00.000+08:00

I don't care about the priority
Let's break the rules and ignore society

Let's go to the park
I wanna kiss u underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't

i dun wanna care bout it too. . .

if only i can. . .

2007-04-15T01:32:00.000+08:00

*spotted*
- supporting "Chunky and Me" at momo...

*missing*
- where's the babin monkey?

*captured*
- the inspirational one who moved me to tears with his movements

*IDH*

-DXO_Brooklyn party by L.A.D.C

*NRA*

- da performin crew

2007-04-05T14:37:00.000+08:00

BEWARE!

a troublemaker is out to spoil ur day!

so stay away!!!!!!!!!

just beware of me.

2007-04-03T18:03:00.000+08:00

Why is e trust so easily broken?

misunderstood.

you din even want to listen. =(

2007-03-29T11:23:00.000+08:00

breathe
.
.
.
.

von
.
.
..

breathe

come on...
u can do it...

3 deep deep breaths
.
.
.
.
..

=)

there u go..

it wasnt tat al hard rite?

*just wat am i thinkin
Baby I wont shead a tear for you
I won't lose a wink of sleep
Cause the truth of the matter is
Replacing you is so easy*

2007-03-28T12:43:00.000+08:00

stress
stress
stress
stress
compress
compress
compress
compress
........
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..........
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................
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im so deeply compressly stressfully depressed right now

...........
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i cant think of wat to say any more..
...
.....

so depressing.

2007-03-22T17:21:00.000+08:00

something is so wrong.

why do i feel so weird?

why..

do i hav such feelings ???

i.......

...

....

i cant even find the right word to describe it.....

its so...........................

.....

indescribable

........

.....
....

..........

......

Hope its nth serious. =(

2007-03-18T18:51:00.000+08:00

love this pic.
all of us look so loving tgt... =)

*slowly. . . slowly . . . slowly . . .*
im abt to lose it too